Just a wee whinge

[Olive]

I used to think before we were ttc how I couldnt wait for this time Pfft!

I just wanted to vent really. I'm getting fed up with OPKs and always wondering if we're bding enough. I've not got a second line yet (or a faint second line - seems OPKs are the same as HPTs for me so far lol), but am having what I thought was my OV symptoms today. Like cramp but not painful. So thinking I might be OVing and there's just no line (is that poss?) and hoping that second line comes at the weekend just so I can friggin see one! (Louise don't shout at me for mentioning OPKs please ttc is officially driving me insane and I know it can still come I'm just a loon)

So my brain is also telling me could be pg signs, which doesn't even make sense - I'm on cd17.

So far we've BD on CD's 7, 10, 11, 12, 13 and 16 - tell me, is that crap?? If it is, I don't know that we can do better. I don't think we will tonight. The thing is, I feel like a psycho as we don't usually bother so much in the week and I practically have to ask OH, and I know he thinks I'm using him (which admitedly I am!), but could tell last night he was just trying to get it over and done with.

Basically ttc sucks and I wanted to put it out there. BIG SIGH.

Oh and happy friday - thank FOOK its the weekend.

xxxxx

 

[Piglet's Mama]

Soooooooooooooo glad I am not the only one!
I HATE OPK's - they are a load of b0llocks I've decided.
Have been having signs of OV for 7 days and apart from a teensy dark line, NOTHING! Plus, managed to cock up two of the digi tests too...
Yesterday, I had to fight back the tears when I was washing up, pathetic or what?
I don't think I'm asking for much, just a line on an OPK - not HPT, just OPK! Please God!
x

 

[Olive]

Thank god Jenny - I'm not alone. Lol. I know it can still happen, but just think it's not gonna. I wonder if I'm destined to see a red line only...and it's always such a clear red line just to rub it in! lol.xxx

 

[Piglet's Mama]

I know exactly what you mean! Earlier, I was just thinking "is this actually going to happen for me?" which I know is ridiculous as I have only been for trying 5 minutes...! My problem is I have unrealistic expectations; I said to OH, I expected to decide we were TTC and the next day I'd be up the spout!
Just annoyed that I'm now CD21 and I'm still seeing neg lines... even with my cycles being long, I thought the AC would have done something & there would be some sign of OV. I mean now, I can't even rely on EWCM as it turns out most of us can't really notice it anyway...
Grrrrr....! x

 

[LouiseB]

You again!!!



I think you've been bd'in plenty, but try not to give up just yet - keep it up at least every other day

Not tonight, but def tomorrow and cd20 and cd 22 etc etc, but more if you can manage.

It's really hard when you start off so strong and then starts running out of steam before you're sure you've managed it.

 

[Piglet's Mama]

I do worry about the quality over quantity debacle - is there any truth in that...?
We have been BD-ing every other week day, then from Thurs through to Sun but I don't know if I should be worried about OH running out of the good swimmers...?
x

 

[Olive]

Thanks Lou. Think will buy something kinkyish tomorrow lol as a desperate measure to convince him to have sex with me and dig out my inner temptress lol. He made a good point last night that I don't even try any seduction, which is kinda true. Felt well bad!

I think it's hard to know Jenny. So many girls have said they've got their bfp's after only having sex a few times, but they others have said they did it a lot. Suppose the thing is doing it at the right time - which is why I hate OPKs! lol

xxx

 

[LouiseB]

I read that if your OHs sperm count is good, then every day is fine.

If OH sperm count isn't ok, then it can make the sperm count worse and therefore you should do it every other day.

That said, my OH has a terrible sperm count and i'm still making him do it everyday, because i'm hoping it will increase his quality which is also crap

 

[Piglet's Mama]

Hoping all is well in that department then
As we're only in Cycle 2, I'm not letting myself think of that yet...I worry enough as it is - I'm practically having a break down over lack of EWCM and negative OPK's; if I start on the really important stuff I will tip myself off the edge!

x

 

[Binzy]

I feel your pain girls, it's such crap. If you do it too much you're too knackered to do anything else and are accused of of using OH for his sperm, if you don't do it enough you feel like you haven't done enough to warrant a BFP...I'm due AF on Monday and have all this BS running around my head, no symptoms whatsoever and am just tired of the whole thing.

 

[Piglet's Mama]

Binzy, it is so tiring and exasperating. I'm not necessarily asking for a BFP, I just want to know when I'm bl00dy OV-ing! Surely that is not too much to ask...?
Hoping the witch stays away for you
x

 

[LouiseB]

I'm due AF on Monday and have all this BS running around my head, no symptoms whatsoever and am just tired of the whole thing.

Aw i'm sorry Binzy, when you start to feel like that it's really hard to shake

I hope you start feeling a better soon

 

[Binzy]

I'm just a bit fed up with everything, I feel like I can't move on till I get a BFP. Work's really getting me down yet I think there's no point looking around coz a) if you've got a permanent job with maternity pay etc you should count yourself lucky and hold onto it and b) I wouldn't want to start a new job then get pregnant and balls it all up. Plus annoying pregnant girl at work has her bump in my face ALL the time and it's ALL anyone ever talks about (she was annoying before she got pregnant). I'm in a really bad mood today which is a sure sign that AF is around the corner and that means more waiting. Can you tell I'm a bit impatient? Sorry to just come here and moan all the time, but it is seriously messing with my brain.

 

[SunnyGirl]

Poor Binzy
Hate smug bump women!! Grr!
My friend started new job & got preg straight away and it all worked out fine cos of the not having to tell them for 15 weeks. Stay where u are if it's just general fed upness but if you're really miserable where u are then don't worry about changing jobs cos it all works out ok.
Bless you feeling so crap - we here for you tho!! Xxx

 

[Binzy]

Thanks again ladies, need to do something a a bit more enjoyable than hoovering, that'll cheer me up.

 

[LouiseB]

I feel like I can't move on till I get a BFP

I'm like that. I'm itching for a part-time job just to get me out of the house while my husband is doing his studies and i'm a bit redundant (as his secretary) but i want some responsibility and don't want to be jerking anyone around.

My house is mocking me I went straight in for a huge house and i have three empty bedrooms and a playroom just full of boxes and crap and i can't bear to touch them until i have someone to put in them. I sacrificed having the land i wanted for animals for the extra bedrooms and they're empty! Grrr.

 

[Binzy]

Maybe you could do some volunteer stuff? Then you wouldn't feel so tied to it? I have a small 2 bed flat which is on the market so we can get a bigger place if we ever get a BFP but only one person has come to see it so far, so once again, just feel like we're stuck.
AND I just knocked a bloody candle over and the effing wax went everywhere and I'd just hoovered and mopped the floor, FFS I need to get out of the house. OH is off watching the football, I'm going to have a walk down to the local shops and buy something i don't need.

 

[LouiseB]

Is it warm in Italy this time of year?

 

[Binzy]

No unfortunately not, it's about 12C today, so quite mild. It's probably better in the south. I'm up in the north.
I came back with 2 doughnuts by the way...