It's been a bad day for me....

[Emapot1]

Picked up Annabel's ashes as she's been with my MIL whilst house has been renovated. I have booed and booed and booed till my eyes are so sore. My son (and I love him dearly) has tested me the last few weeks and started hitting me during his tantrums and I sligtly feel apprehensive over the labour approaching. I like shake every day feeling something will go wrong. I'm exactly at the same gestation I was when I gave birth to Annabel last year and all I want to do is have my baby in my arms.

I swear my anxiety is turning me into a stressful nervous wreck. I don't know how I will get through to 40 weeks. Xxx

 

[mrsbedders]

I have no words for what you are going through, i am thinking of you like so many others are. It will all be fine and you will have your baby so soon. Look how far youve come xx

 

[Pismo]

Didn't want to read and run sweet. I don't have the words to take your pain and anxiety away but I wish I did.

I'm sure, if I had been through even half of what you had, I would feel the same way. Its ok to have bad days and I hope in the future the time between them gets longer. Allow yourself days like this, they don't make you a bad mum.

I hope you have your LO safely in your arms when they are ready.

There are plenty of people here if you ever need to vent/rant/cry.

Sending you huge hugs via the internet...

xx

 

[BonzE]

Bless you, have you talked your anxieties through with your husband or midwife? she may be able to help put your mind at ease?

Im sure nothing but having your baby here safe and sound will make you feel better but sending hugs and thinking of you x

 

[Emapot1]

Thanks all, I spoke to a me on the ward when I was ringing for my blood results a while ago and she said with special mitigating circumstances, having a date to work towards rather than potentially going over due and letting the anxiety spiral, they could anticipate and induction sometime after 38 weeks.

I guess Im petrified that going overdue might lead to complications etc. I'll be having a growth scan on the 1st June so maybe I'll ask my consultant if they can bring things forward. Seriously everyday I wake up not knowing what's going to happen. It's like my worst fears and biggest excitements are all coming at once and that's actually really hard to deal with atm. I know my body has reacted well to inductions but is it safe to the baby? Xx

 

[Tmum]

Didn't want to read and run. I have no experience of this but it must be hard having the clash of emotions atm on top of hormones! Hopefully they will be able to bring things forward to help you. I had an induction with my lb at 39 weeks as he was static growth from 28 weeks and he was fine. I'll be thinking of you over the next few weeks and I'll follow your progress when I officially come over here (on Friday lol) but you've come so far. xx

 

[Emapot1]

Thanks everyone. I imagine they will consider based on baby's wellbeing and perhaps I'll suggest stretch and sweeps and a gel to brings on labour and see how I go? I feel like I've reached a huge milestone but at the same time I feel like I've hit a brick wall. I will let you Know what they say at 36 weeks for and induction x

 

[Sunbeam638]

Ah I'm sorry to read about Annabel xx it's going to be such an anxious time. I have no words of wisdom apart from I hope time goes as quickly as possible for you & you are fully supported by the mw's and docs xx

 

[blueeyes34]

I can't even imagine what you are going through and it is no wonder you are anxious. I hope you have your baby safe in your arms shortly.

Just wanted to send you my best wishes and love xx

 

[Emapot1]

Thank you for your support ladies. I count down the days x

 

[JJ Mum]

It's totally understandible you feeling like this , esp now your here at similar gestation as before with Annabel, huge hugs xx

Just keep talking to consultant/midwifes about your fears and I feel where they can they will do something to help you xx

 

[MrsG81]

Just wanted to give you a huge ((((((hug))))))))