I'm scared about making the wrong decision about the future of my baby

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It's been a wild few days for me. I thought I was having a severe IBS flare up because my past medical history and current symptoms all lined up with it, but it turns out that I am actually 7 months pregnant. I'm due in two months and I honestly have no idea if I want to keep the baby or find a family that can provide for it better mentally and emotionally as I have Major Depressive Disorder and Autism. I have a strong support system who is willing to help me through whatever I choose to do but it's not me that I'm worried about, it's the future of my kid. What if it has all of the medical issues that I have and I do give it up for adoption, but the family doesn't treat it right? What if it never gets adopted and it's doomed to a life of instability and struggle? What if it doesn't have any issues and I end up raising it myself? Will I be maternal enough to be able to take care of the baby and raise it well? What if there are major complications during the birthing process and the worst happens? I have so many thoughts racing through my mind, and I won't have any answers to these questions until the time actually comes for me to decide. I'm terrified at the idea of giving birth and I'm terrified that the wrong choice will set this baby up for failure. Any and all advice would help me a lot.