Turns out OH had planned to go out with his mates this friday. Fine, but when i reminded him that ive got to go back to the hospital this friday to have repeat bloods taken to find out if im losing this baby, it struck him that he may have to cancel going out with this mates! so he moaped around for most of the day, and i caved in. but im still pissed off about it. im just expected to be able to deal with what happens - im only just keeping it togther now!
and now he has gone to his mates. When he asked if it was ok if he popped around his mates for a couple of hours, and i complained that the pains have got worse, but it wasn't fair for him to not be able to go out
. he has had one hell of a weekend. im not doubting that, but for me the hell is still going on! im struggling with alice, the pain keeps taking my breath away. im dreading friday - but then i just want this nightmare to be over!!
im so pissed of. Me and alice are such an inconvience. And the fact he has brought next to no money in this month is getting to me. i know its not his fault when people don't pay ontime, but he hasn't got enough work in this month, due to be paid next month, to cover the bills. yet he still thinks he has some 'right' to go out. when do i get to go out! i don't likee going out, becuase its spending money on something we don't need. I would rather get a takeaway in and save the rest for alice. When ever i have suggested him getting a part time job to bring a fixed amount in it starts an argument and it is easier just to drop the subject.
yet if i text him now asking him to come home because im in too much pain, i would have spoilt a nice evening. he doesn't like hospitals (who does!!), and i think he is worried i am going to say i need to go (im way off that at the mo). but what if i started bleeding really heavy again now. I have no way of getting to hospital bar calling 999. i have no one to hand to look after alice. maybe its cause im a women, but all these things go through my head. maybe its just because im scared of these things happening.
im so ticked off!! i need to calm down before he comes home or i am going to rip his head off!! rahhh...............
deep breaths....
and now he has gone to his mates. When he asked if it was ok if he popped around his mates for a couple of hours, and i complained that the pains have got worse, but it wasn't fair for him to not be able to go out
. he has had one hell of a weekend. im not doubting that, but for me the hell is still going on! im struggling with alice, the pain keeps taking my breath away. im dreading friday - but then i just want this nightmare to be over!! im so pissed of. Me and alice are such an inconvience. And the fact he has brought next to no money in this month is getting to me. i know its not his fault when people don't pay ontime, but he hasn't got enough work in this month, due to be paid next month, to cover the bills. yet he still thinks he has some 'right' to go out. when do i get to go out! i don't likee going out, becuase its spending money on something we don't need. I would rather get a takeaway in and save the rest for alice. When ever i have suggested him getting a part time job to bring a fixed amount in it starts an argument and it is easier just to drop the subject.
yet if i text him now asking him to come home because im in too much pain, i would have spoilt a nice evening. he doesn't like hospitals (who does!!), and i think he is worried i am going to say i need to go (im way off that at the mo). but what if i started bleeding really heavy again now. I have no way of getting to hospital bar calling 999. i have no one to hand to look after alice. maybe its cause im a women, but all these things go through my head. maybe its just because im scared of these things happening.
im so ticked off!! i need to calm down before he comes home or i am going to rip his head off!! rahhh...............
deep breaths....
Sorry but this kind of thing makes me too angry. Huni its best you go hospital all the matters is you and your kiddies not that selfish man, thats terrible!!!
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