I can't stand it any more!!!!!

[Vickyleigh]

I am seriously suffering from anxiety and it's starting to get me down in a big way.
I'm always worried about the baby and things going wrong.
It's not the thought of giving birth thats the problem, in fact i cant wait to go through all that pain just so I can have her here with me and see for myself that she is ok.
I love the baby so so much and the thought of anything bad happening to her just makes me want to cry.
Since the start of the pregnancy I have worried that something will go wrong, I suppose it's partly to do with the fact that I didn't think I could have kids and now there is one on the way I keep thinking its too good to be true something will go wrong and i'll loose her.
I've had no reason to be worried because so far I have breezed through it and haven't had any problems at all and I know the baby is ok but I can't help but think that I'm going to loose her.
All day everyday it's on my mind that something will go wrong and when she sticks her little bum out or pokes her head up it makes me soooo happy that she is ok and being active but at the same time it makes me feel sad because I'm always convinced something will go wrong so I'm scared of getting attached to her but it's far far to late for that because I already love her more then I imagined I could.
I haven't told anyone at all about this. This is the first time I have spoke about it, I had to get it off my chest!!!
The midwife knows I'm anxious about the size of the baby but she doesn't know how bad I really feel.
I can't stand all this worry I just wish the time would go even faster so I can have the baby with me

 

[Snuggle]

Aw hunny, you sound so sad Is there anyone close that you can sit and talk to about how you're feeling? I worry about LO but not to the extent you have described. It does sound like your worries stem from the fact that you thought you couldnt have children so now you're terrified that something is going to take all this away from you.
I hope someone on here can give you some good advice coz I'm no good at this but here's some hugs for you

 

[mrs_tommo22]

Vickyleigh I know how you feel, you feel like something is going to go wrong cos its all been too easy amd after my scare last night Im going to let my worries go.And you should do the same.
Your young and healthy and the right soze for your height and build and if there was going to be something wrong with your DD they would have picked it up by now.
Count your blessings and think yourself lucky you are having a baby that you are looking forward too and love and you have a man that loves you very much.

Your a lucky woman and not many people like me and you can say that.

 

[Vickyleigh]

Thanks Snuggle

I haven't had many problems with my hormones but I think they are all over the place at the moment.
I'm also worried about how this is going to effect me after the birth, me worrying and stressing like this I mean.
I am going to have to speak to OH about it because he has started to notice the change in my moods and we have started to argue and we never argue! I flung an ash tray at the wall yesterday, unforunatly it missed his head by an inch.lol i'm glad it missed his head but thats how bad its all getting to me.

 

[Vickyleigh]

Count your blessings and think yourself lucky you are having a baby that you are looking forward too and love and you have a man that loves you very much.

Your a lucky woman and not many people like me and you can say that.

Thats just it, I do count my blessings and I feel so lucky but I feel too lucky if you get what I mean.
In 8 weeks I'll be posting pictures of her and you'll all be saying 'see I told you so' I cant wait till that day.

 

[mrs_tommo22]

I do understand andI was the same with the forst baby too but because i have him to concentrate on I put my worries out of my mind, i dont hjave time to worry bout stuff

 

[Sabrina]

Sorry to read you are feeling anxious Vicky. I can totally sympathise though because I have started to feel a similar way myself the last week or so.

I am sure your baby will be fine. So long as the MW/doctors have given you no reason to worry you must try to relax a little about things. If you don't feel like talking to a friend or family member how about asking the MW or hospital if there is a counsellor you can chat to? I was very worried about my LO not getting enough food through the placenta (due to similar complications last pregnancy). A MW at the hospital gave me the number for a perinatal counsellor at the hospital should I ever need to talk to someone. It's worth asking if you do feel so worried.

Unfortunately when we are stressed we often alienate our loved ones. Your poor OH is probably feeling worried in his own way too. Try to talk to him about things so you can share your concerns together.