First, forgive my english is not my native language but i will do my best. Im 10 weeks pregnant and my baby's heart stopped beating. I feel devastated and guilty because when I found out I was pregnant I didnt want the baby, I was so insecure about my relatiinship with the father and had so many goals that I wanted to fullfill before having a baby that I actually schedualed an abortion but I couldnt go thru with it. After a few weeks I started to love my baby more than anything and made big plans for our new family. I used to live with my parents and I even rented out an expensive apartment for me and my baby and forgot about the idea of buying a new car or getting a masters degree i just wanted to give my baby the best life possible. Now im in a big depression and i dont even want to get a d/c, my baby is dead inside my womb, but alive in my heart because i just cant let my little angel go. What can I do to deal with this guilty feeling for wanting an abortion in first place? Please I need some advice.