I plan on staying at home until I really can't bare it any more (whether this happens is another story as I've not done this before) and then not have to spend too long in hospital, preferably to push my baby out then be on postnatal! I know it probably won't happen like this but I like to think it will. Lol. Rachel honey you should do hypnobirthing classes, I thinkthe anxieties about being in hospital will be greatly eased if you practise this, and why not try for a home birth? Nice and relaxed, midwife at the house, music, calm environment, hey presto! You dont need to worry (I know easier said than done when you've got a phobia) there is so much help and support and you can pretty much choose anything you like for pain relief. I hope you find level ground with it. It's such a scary thing isn't it, especially not doing it before, but that's what us women are made to do and are more than capable. You never know you may love the whole experience! Many do! Xxxx