I'm a sobbing mess right now!! I don't know what the hell to do...
It started Saturday morning when she started screaming the place down and would ONLY settle in my arms. No-one else could calm her. She's been really clingy with me ever since.
We had an OK day on Sunday, yesterday was brill and she slept most of the day... So I was worried about today, and I had every right to be.
Evie has basically been awake since 4am. At 4am she started whining and wouldn't settle. So I was up all morning with her fussing on my boob unsettled and whinging. She's probably only slept for an hour today (cat napped, about 4 x 15 minute naps).
Anyway, Evie's been a NIGHTMARE with feeding. She'll go on, pull off, whinge as if she's not getting any milk, get frustrated, go back, come off a few seconds later, cry etc. She will NOT settle. Tonight she's been even worse. SCREAMING the place down.
I don't think it's my milk supply, if anything I'm pretty damn sure it's increased! She pulls off and there's fresh milk that she hasn't swallowed leaking from her mouth!!
I was sooooo furious tonight and devastated - sobbing! I made beans on toast while my Mum had her for FIVE minutes and she started screaming. Crying, I made up a bottle and used a cup to feed her. She was choking guys, there is no way I'm doing that again - who the hell decided cup feeding a newborn was a good idea?! It was so upsetting to watch the poor little thing trying desperately to feed.
So I gave her the bottle and my God, she GULPED it down. In fact, after 90ml (and only JUST coming off a 45 minute boob battle), she could have had more I'm sure of it. I thought she'd only need a 30ml top up but she deffo could have taken more.
She's been on my boob 40% of the time today. Seriously, that often! It's just like she's not getting anything, but I'm full with milk! What the hell is going on!?
I'm so angry.
xxx
Shall I admit defeat and give up? Come on girls, be realistic - I'm fighting a losing battle aren't I. Why am I doing this?!
It started Saturday morning when she started screaming the place down and would ONLY settle in my arms. No-one else could calm her. She's been really clingy with me ever since.
We had an OK day on Sunday, yesterday was brill and she slept most of the day... So I was worried about today, and I had every right to be.
Evie has basically been awake since 4am. At 4am she started whining and wouldn't settle. So I was up all morning with her fussing on my boob unsettled and whinging. She's probably only slept for an hour today (cat napped, about 4 x 15 minute naps).
Anyway, Evie's been a NIGHTMARE with feeding. She'll go on, pull off, whinge as if she's not getting any milk, get frustrated, go back, come off a few seconds later, cry etc. She will NOT settle. Tonight she's been even worse. SCREAMING the place down.
I don't think it's my milk supply, if anything I'm pretty damn sure it's increased! She pulls off and there's fresh milk that she hasn't swallowed leaking from her mouth!!
I was sooooo furious tonight and devastated - sobbing! I made beans on toast while my Mum had her for FIVE minutes and she started screaming. Crying, I made up a bottle and used a cup to feed her. She was choking guys, there is no way I'm doing that again - who the hell decided cup feeding a newborn was a good idea?! It was so upsetting to watch the poor little thing trying desperately to feed.
So I gave her the bottle and my God, she GULPED it down. In fact, after 90ml (and only JUST coming off a 45 minute boob battle), she could have had more I'm sure of it. I thought she'd only need a 30ml top up but she deffo could have taken more.
She's been on my boob 40% of the time today. Seriously, that often! It's just like she's not getting anything, but I'm full with milk! What the hell is going on!?
I'm so angry.
xxx
Shall I admit defeat and give up? Come on girls, be realistic - I'm fighting a losing battle aren't I. Why am I doing this?!