Help BFP after 5 Chemicals

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  1. Leanne Smyth

    Leanne Smyth Member

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    Hi, I am new to this page and I hope someone can give me some strong reassurance. I have had 5 Chemical pregnancies in the past 15 months, I have had blood work done and all is fine, all seems to be fine with myself and my husband. my period was due 26/02 and I tested positive again, I called my doctor and she gave me Utrogestan 100mg, 6 pills a day for 20 days, I am so stressed and depressed, and I don't know If I can take anymore, I feel like such a failure, I am 36 and my husband is 30, and I can't help think he should leave me and find someone who can give him a baby, it's affecting my marriage, I pray so hard that this time will work.. sorry for going on, my question: has anyone else been through this and came out the other end with a healthy baby.. please help me... before I go insane. xx
     
  2. emcayo

    emcayo Well-Known Member

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    I'm right there with you. Sometimes it can be rotten luck--thinking positive thoughts for you. Please don't feel down on yourself for something that's out of your control. I'm also waiting after three miscarriages on an ultrasound in two weeks and I'm fully convinced I will have another miscarriage between now and then, but the numbers seem ok this time. It's awful. Hang in there and don't beat yourself up! Can your doctor do anything to ease your mind like an HCG test or an early ultrasound?
     
  3. Leanne Smyth

    Leanne Smyth Member

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    Thank you for your reply.. I was feeling quite alone. My little seed is hanging on.. I've passed the 4 weeks 5 days, which has never happened .. I know it's still early and like yourself I still can't shake the feeling of another early/chemical . I've an appointment next week for an ultrasound, she wont see me before then ;( I'm sure your anxious, to see what the next 2 weeks will bring my mum keeps telling me "good things come to those who wait " I hope she is right for us all.. I will be praying hard for you.
     
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    chattychar1990 Well-Known Member

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    Hi Leanne,
    I know it really is easier said than done but being positive is definitely what you need to do in situations like this.
    Its obvious that you are going to worry but try and just stay positive. Law of attraction and all that jazz plays a big part in our lives.
    Good luck and i hope this is your sticky bean x
     
  5. emcayo

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    Thinking of you and really truly praying for the best. Keep updating us on how it's going.
     
  6. Leanne Smyth

    Leanne Smyth Member

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    Hi Emcayo,

    I wanted to update you.I called my doctor and asked her to see me as I was going totally crazy, was so scared of going to the bathroom, scared to move, She agreed to see me today, scan went great, my little bean is 5 weeks 4 days and all seems to be going well, I could see it :).. pheww ;) I am not out of the woods yet, but the doctor has assured me that all is going the way it should be. I go back on Tuesday hopefully we will hear the heartbeat. How are you feeling? I really hope things are progressing for you? are you on any meds?
     
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  7. Leanne Smyth

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    Thank you I hope so too.. all seems great at the moment. a little more positive than before. I don't know what your situation is, but whatever it is, I am sending you love and best wishes.
     
  8. emcayo

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    That's wonderful! I'm so happy for you, and keeping everything crossed that this one sticks :). I'm going to call my fertility clinic today and ask them to get me in for an early scan as well. My spotting hasn't stopped, so not hopeful.
     
  9. Leanne Smyth

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    Auk no way.. I really believe the tablets the doctor gave me helped or is helping.. the specialist couldn't find anything wrong and these pills were a case of.. it won't hurt to give it a go.. you should def ask.. please don't give up hope yet.. this is coming from someone who spends 24/7 stressing and afraid to move of the couch .. it's the worst feeling in the world, I understand 100% what your going through.. we have all been through enough now.. I really really hope your wee bean is just playing a game with you and then will go surprise;) I'm here x
     
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    You basically described exactly what I feel as well :D Just completely afraid to do anything! We must be really close in our stages--today I'm around 5 weeks 5 days. My ultrasound was ok, but the nurse said the only way to know for sure is to do another one a week later and now I'm just so nervous for if they do or don't find a heartbeat. How are you feeling this weekend? Hang in there! You're not alone.
     
  11. Leanne Smyth

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    Yes, we are exactly at the same stage, that's good your ultrasound is ok, did you see anything in the sac? OMG I've to go on Tuesday and she told me I will hear the heartbeat, everything is going through my mind now, I am also so nervous, I will freak out if I don't hear it, I will assume the worse, I kinda wish she said nothing. I had to work yesterday and I was so bad, I am a bartender and I basically moved like a snail lol. I am feeling OK, the odd cramps here and there, I tested again with a clear blue this morning and it's now reading 3 plus, so something is still working, I totally feel for you, the stress us women go through is unreal, When I was a teenager I always thought once you get pregnant your pregnant, end off.. wish that was the case. please keep me posted on how you are doing, plenty of rest for us both. I am spending the day watching TV and drinking Tea :0) I have Laundry to do, beds to change and a house to clean... but nope it can all wait.. xx
     
  12. emcayo

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    Fingers and toes crossed for good news this next week all around! The nurse said she saw a smudge of the fetal pole, and when I look at the scan I can see a dot as well, but nothing was very clear. My next scan is Thursday this week. I don't know what I'll do if it's bad news. Try to hang in there and take it easy. Have you started feeling nausea yet? Mine has come on a little after I eat, but not before. I'm just glad it's here at all.
     
  13. Leanne Smyth

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    Hey, hope you are doing really well and things are easier on you and have progressed, I had my appointment and it showed my little bean all cozy, its measuring 5.3mm and we saw the heart beating, My doctor is telling me that all is fine, its growth is what it should. She has scheduled me another appointment for next Monday and then every 2 weeks, I have to stay on the medication until 12 weeks. I still can't shake the feeling that it will go wrong again, but I hope that I am proved wrong. I am now at 6w3days, (longest ever.) no sickness, the only symptom I have is heavy boobs. Good Luck for Thursday, keep us updated, xx
     
  14. emcayo

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    Yay! That's great. I'm glad to hear, and right there with you with this being the longest pregnancy so far. Hopefully it will put your mind at ease for a little while at least. I'm continuing to have this dark brown discharge which really looks like pieces of tissue or grit. I'm very worried for my appointment tomorrow and don't know what I'll do if it's bad news, although I have been feeling very nauseous the past few days to the point where I feel as though I have the stomach flu. I'm so hoping that that's a good sign and I'm praying the spotting is the progesterone suppositories. Will post here tomorrow either way, though might have to transition back to the miscarriage board. :/
     
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    Sometimes it takes a little time for our bodies to get the hang of it, you’ve certainly given me hope after my three chemicals. I’m glad everything is going well so far and I’m praying for a healthy strong baby that will stick it out for the 9 months for you xxx
     
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