katastrophic
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Need to chat and don't know who to talk to, having a bad day!
How can you tell if its hormones or depression, I can't control my emotions at the moment and its driving me mad, I keep breaking down and I'm finding it very hard to speak to my OH. I moved to the area just a month before I found out I was pregnant and friends and family are a two hour drive away, I've always been happy in my own company but I am just so sad and lonely and finding the pregnancy terrifying with no one to talk to. If I try and talk to my partner he blames himself for my unhappiness because I left my old life for him so I try to hide it from him and he thinks that I'm just a stroppy pregnant mare so he gives me space when all I desperately want is a hug, I feel so bad because I am constantly demanding reassurance and attention like a child and feel like I'm a constant irritation to him. I can't say anything to my family and friends back home because I don't want to worry them and they desperately want me to return home and I can't cope with the pressure of their demands, I've never felt so low in my life and I feel so guilty as this should be the happiest time. It doesn't help that I have got to the stage where the weight is piling on now and my partner is scared that any initmacy may hurt the babe which is making me feel totally undesirable and disgusting, I tried to discuss all this with my midwife but all she said is "Oh, bit of a stresshead aren't we!". I'm only temping as work was harder to come by once I found out I was pregnant and I feel so vulnerable and insecure that I'm finding it difficult to make friends which I have never had a problem with in the past, I have loads of friends back home but I am starting to lose them as I'm not returning calls as I don't want them to know that my life isn't as perfect as I pretend it is. I've got no one to turn to and I hate asking for help but I don't know how to deal with this any longer, I'm at breaking point today, sorry I've gone on but I so needed to get all that out..........I know there are so many worse things that are going on in the world but I can't seem to escape my own head at the moment.
How can you tell if its hormones or depression, I can't control my emotions at the moment and its driving me mad, I keep breaking down and I'm finding it very hard to speak to my OH. I moved to the area just a month before I found out I was pregnant and friends and family are a two hour drive away, I've always been happy in my own company but I am just so sad and lonely and finding the pregnancy terrifying with no one to talk to. If I try and talk to my partner he blames himself for my unhappiness because I left my old life for him so I try to hide it from him and he thinks that I'm just a stroppy pregnant mare so he gives me space when all I desperately want is a hug, I feel so bad because I am constantly demanding reassurance and attention like a child and feel like I'm a constant irritation to him. I can't say anything to my family and friends back home because I don't want to worry them and they desperately want me to return home and I can't cope with the pressure of their demands, I've never felt so low in my life and I feel so guilty as this should be the happiest time. It doesn't help that I have got to the stage where the weight is piling on now and my partner is scared that any initmacy may hurt the babe which is making me feel totally undesirable and disgusting, I tried to discuss all this with my midwife but all she said is "Oh, bit of a stresshead aren't we!". I'm only temping as work was harder to come by once I found out I was pregnant and I feel so vulnerable and insecure that I'm finding it difficult to make friends which I have never had a problem with in the past, I have loads of friends back home but I am starting to lose them as I'm not returning calls as I don't want them to know that my life isn't as perfect as I pretend it is. I've got no one to turn to and I hate asking for help but I don't know how to deal with this any longer, I'm at breaking point today, sorry I've gone on but I so needed to get all that out..........I know there are so many worse things that are going on in the world but I can't seem to escape my own head at the moment.