Friends??

[mookie]

Thank you kezzamunster!

I didn't expect them to jump for joy but something more than 'oh' would have been nice. I have two sister and one brother 21, 18 and brother is 11, they require constant attention from my mum because they always have some crisis in their lives! My mum does everything for them. Last year was terrible for us, nearly lost our house, but don't worry it all sorted now, we got no support at all, family lives 10 minutes away and if I don't go over there I can go months without see them. Thats why I want to move, being by the sea makes me happy and I figure if I live 2 hours away and know they can't see me is going to hurt less than knowing they live 10 mins away and can't be bothered.

He is so cute but I'm biased, I know! Caederyn is so calm and kind and obviously very clever too Nothing makes him happier than trying to help mummy and daddy, part of the reason we decided we should ttc so he has someone to play with. He keeps asking if poppy is happy too! I'm so emotional! Have no idea what will happen if the baby is a boy, might get a few odd looks if caederyn is calling him poppy!

How is ttc going? xxx

 

[Kezzamunster]

I really don't know what to say but I can only imagine how hurtful & upsetting it is for you, that's really not very nice at all esp when you need them at stressful & hard times like you & your OH have been through & living only 10 mins away as well. I really feel for you & it breaks my heart to think how lucky I am, don't get me wrong we've had our ups & downs & been to hell & back but it's brought us closer & I can't imagine life without them. I'm so sorry they are like this, your a lovely person & don't deserve it at all

I just hope you can feel a sense of family from us girls on the forum, we will always be here for you my lovely

Omg I'm in he sounds such a beautiful lil boy, so caring as well esp asking after mummies tummy, sorry, mummies poppy, that's the cutest thing ever

Well it's cycle 3 of TTC & I'm still 2ww, I'm currently on CD29/15DPO & I'm having lots of very good symptoms but I did a First Response this morning & was negative so just the waiting game really

I had a weird afternoon yesterday, had really sharp pinching pains in my uterus that didn't last long then went all shivery then all hot then had a wretching fit for 5 mins & had to stop myself from throwing up, got home & temp was up at 38.1, weird thing was I felt absolutely fine, really happy & chirpy & today, temp at 36.1 but feel physically drained & unbelievably tired

Very strange but am sure will find out soon enough, be lovely if was just a shy positive

xxxxx

 

[mookie]

Your an amazing person, so kind and caring! I felt a little warm glow while reading your message I have a friend
I really hope it is a shy positive, you really deserve it! I'll be keeping everything crossed for you, can't promise to keep my legs crossed for long as I'm peeing for england!

For the week before I tested I was really cold (apparently because my body temp was raised), my left breast was really sore right at the back where it's along your rib cage, thought I had mastitis (sp?) but thought I'm not pregnant. Had sharp pains too. I know it's tmi & I'm probably alone on this but for some reason after my son was born (had a c section) I go to the bathroom (no 2) any where between 2-5 times a day that changed and I realised I was only going once, I was so happy! Also noticed that when we my cervix felt sore and swollen.

I really hope your going to get a positive!

Do you work? xxx

 

[Kezzamunster]

Awwwwww thanks my lovely, well if I can make someone laugh or smile or even feel a lil better then I'm happy

You betcha you got a friend I will always be around to chat to you hun plus I know how difficult it is to make friends, I find it quite hard myself & then I have trouble keeping them, they kinda lose interest & then don't talk to me but if they are like that then they aren't worth having in your life at all

I have been peeing a lot the last couple of days so can only imagine how much worse tiddling gets

Thanks for sharing your symptoms hun, I keep telling myself it's the on the way so I won't be disappointed, although that's easier said then done

I've got back ache, terrible skin with under the skin spots on my chin, spots on my chest & back, peeing a lot more then normal, trouble with gas & severe constipation (I'm regular myself & go a minimum of twice a day) boobs are very full & heavy & left one hurts more then the right, strange taste/feeling in my mouth, bad heartburn & indigestion, physically drained & tiredness, weird stretching/pulling feeling in uterus & on the left side, headaches, cervix is high & soft, very wet/moist & lots of creamy cm, my knickers are always wet as well......Right now it feels like something is squeezing my ovaries & swinging around & banging their feet against the front of the uterus, very strange!!!

Omg it's endless.......

I've got one more test left so think I will wait a few days & see what happens

xxxx

 

[mookie]

Your symptoms sound so promising! It's so hard though because the back pain, sore breast and most of the others can be explained as the wrong time of month, thats exactly what I did, I was so glad to be wrong!! (First and only time that will happen ) I really hope you get a positive!!!

I struggle to make friends too. Never really had any at school because I was raising my lil brother. When I started working I just didn't have the same interests, I tried clubbing a couple of times and just didn't like it, I guess it's because I played mum so young, I didn't fit in so was left out.

Have you decided what day to test again? You are blessed with patience! When I was ttc my son we were using clear blue and I was using 2-3 a day when I thought I was due, for 3 months!!! LOTS OF MONEY!
You will be glad to hear I only used 2 tests and they were sainsburys, OH was very pleased I got told off last time, 'where's the £10 out my wallet gone?' xx

 

[Kezzamunster]

I know exactly what you mean hun, until coming on to PF I never even realised that OV, AF & pregnancy can all have the same symptoms, makes things very confusing indeed! I keep getting a stitch/pinching feeling on the left side today so hoping that's the key symptom

My best friend was very lucky to conceive her 3 children without any probs & without using OPKs or charting temps or cervical position etc, I've taught her so much since being on PF & she finds it so strange how she never knew any of this, just makes me giggle as she's the mum

I was the same at school, I was the one that normally got bullied & was through all my schools & outside of school to, never really seem to fit in anywhere tbh & kinda the same now but that's ok, I try not to worry much cos it's their lose not mine & I'm the bigger person to I've had a lot of problems with my OHs friends & their GFs, which caused problems for us & is a never ending battle, that will never change but you get used to it & carry on, it would send me crazy otherwise

Oh wow, bet that was a very expensive 3 months hun, I just find it crazy how some of the tests are mega expensive & others aren't, well I'm going to see what happens over the next couple of days & if she hasn't appeared then I will test again Fri or the weekend, fx she can't find me

Oh I forgot to say about work, I work for OCS up in central London as a security guard & I do the reception duties, jobs easy but very boring but I don't mind cos I can spend all day on PF It's an early start, up at 5:30am, should be a bit earlier but I struggle massively even after 3 years!! Start work at 8am & finish at 5pm then home between 6/6:30pm

Do you work hun?

xxx

 

[mookie]

That is a very early start!! I'm up at 7am and normal asleep by 10pm and I'm still shattered!! I don't work, OH decided that he wanted me to look after our son, we have struggled a bit but it's wonderful now.

I got bullied at school too! I have never been a size 8 and got bullied for it, was so bad at one point that someone in my class took the blade out of their pencil sharpener and said they would cut my face. I still get bullied now by the people I used to work with, if they see me out they shout 'fat bitch' It's caused a lot of anxiety for me, so I spend a lot of time in the house.

What will you do when you have a baby? Are you going to go back to work? xxx

 

[Kezzamunster]

You have a lil one to look after so I'm not surprised your shattered, it's got be a tough job, very enjoyable though I'm sure & I just can't wait

I was never the pretty girl at school, well that's what all the girls & boys said. I was incredibly tall compared to everyone back then & had broad shoulders & was never slim, had thick NHS glasses, long greasy hair, permanent braces & really bad acne so I was a prime target really & my parents really weren't well off so it was always something about the fat ugly poor girl, you know how kids can be so cruel. I used to be a size 16 but lost 4.5st over a year & went to a size 8 & no matter whether I was big or small I still had horrid comments made & now I have severe issues with my appearance & weight & generally because of me being me, had probs growing up at home as well so that just adds to my low self esteem, when your told time & time again over years lots of bad things you believe them, I have good days & bad days & try not to get beaten by it all, can be very hard though

I plan on being a stay at home mum, I really don't want to be coming back to work esp not up in London anyway but the OH worries a lot about money so I really don't know how that will turn out tbh

xxx

 

[SunnyGirl]

Hello

you girls - i am so sad reading about how horrible people have been to you and how they bullied you
People who are insecure and can't handle something in another person that is positive turn to bullying ugh it is disgusting. I think you are lovely Kezza and Mookie you sound so lovely as well.
Down with bullies!! I have been victim to it at uni and work - and both times had a breakdown. So not worth it!!
Hugs.

PS not on here much today. Very tired indeed. Oh and I watched One Born Every Minute earlier and was very very put off indeed. To the point where I said to myself that I would probably be totally fine if the witch arrived - how bad is that!! Feel a bit guilty ...

 

[Kezzamunster]

Hey sunny

Awwww bless you

Your just so lovely to & it just breaks my heart when its the loveliest people that get dealt shitty cards in their life, just isn't fair at all but I've come to realise even with our own stresses & anxieties & worries, what doesn't kill us makes us stronger girls

If you can get through hell & back & are still standing strong then your one hell of a person, we are Trojans girls & will not be beaten

On a nicer note though, I only watched the Christmas show & found I got extremely broody & kept crying with tears of happiness when they held their babies for the first time, I even do that when Rachel on friends has Emma......my god I'm such a girl

xxxxxxx

 

[mookie]

Hey Sunnygirl

I'm really sorry you have been bullied too, it's so lonely You sound so lovely, why is it all the lovely people get bullied? I guess sometimes we can be too nice for our own good. I'm definately having the last laugh now as I have a wonderful OH, even if he does make me breakfast the size of a football just as part kicks in! A beautiful little boy and a gorgeous poppy seed on the way!

Don't worry about things like that. During my last pregnancy I developed a fear of giving birth. For the whole 9 months I didn't talk to the midwife or OH/ family about it If anyone mentioned it I would them and if they continued I'd go crazy!! I was so scared. In the end I was 3 days overdue when my waters broke, I don't think I've ever been so calm
If I can do it (I'm a wimp) so can you!

Kezzamunster- I hope your ok today and still having lots of symptoms!! I've started to feel sick, just in the morning and only for a little while, lucky I haven't been sick yet.
Being a stay at home mum is amazing, I'm the first to see all the funny stuff Caederyn does, believe me he can be odd sometimes. It can get a little lonely if you don't go out like me but it's definately worth it. My OH worries about money too and things have been really tight for us, bought a house just before I had my son and it's actually been one of our biggest mistakes, we have had so many problems.

4.5 stone WOW!! What did you do? I've got no idea whats happening but I'm starving all the time, apart from around breakfast. OH doesn't get paid until friday and we really need to go food shopping! Damn the 5 week pay days!!

I have no confidence, all the bullying from school and then work plus all my abusive relationships (not this one) has left me feeling really low but I'm getting there.

You'll this! Decided to roasted veg for dinner asked 'beaky' if he wanted to help, of course he was very keen so I sat him up the table gave him his plastic baby knife and a pepper. After a few mins of chopping he asked to try the pepper, in the mouth it went, 3 chews later he pulls an awful face and spits the pepper into the bowl with all my beautiful freshly chopped veg, smiles and continues chopping!
He's a funny little thing xxx

 

[paddysdaymama]

hey mookie,

thought i'd come say hello,i'm new on here to get advice,make some friends and have a bit of online banter and help out if i can.

must say your mum shouldnt really be scaring you like that and be giving you a bit more support.but i know how you feel my ma is a bit of a nutter sometimes and gets a bit wrapped up in her own stuff and puts alot of negativity out there. What i have done is just taken a step back.try to surround yourself with people who REALLY care about you and you care about them,otherwise it can seem like a losing battle! you have to think about you and yours-they are top priority after all.

i'm due on st. patricks day, i'm not afraid to admit there have been a few ups and downs on the emotions side and yes depression for a bit. But have tried to immerse myself in doing things for me and my baby. have started making kitch toys for my baby and finding lovely fabrics to use etc, this makes me feel good about myself that i'm trying new stuff and keeps bad feelings at bay plus you are bonding with bump in a weird way!! anyways i'm off to try and make a bird mobile now for babys room!

keep well and remember there are people out there who care.xx

 

[Kezzamunster]

Hey Mookie

Lordy lordy, what a day!! It's been absolutely crazy busy today & think everyone that's entered our building, staff & visitors, have woken up on the wrong side of the bed this morning, just sooooo rude & arrogant & absolutely no need for it at all.....I pfft them!!!

Hehehe Your lil one sounds like a right character & so adorable The things they say & do are so funny. Your OH sounds like a wonderful man & it's so nice he treats you how you deserve to be treated, how long have you been together?

Oh Sunny, I didn't realise you felt like that, is it only a recent thing how you feel about the birthing side of things? Touch wood, I'm ok with it, well at the moment anyway but am sure will go out the window when I'm at that stage of getting ready to give birth to my lil one I do find myself asking for all the details good or bad, my trouble is I'm a bit of a 'Monica' so I like to know as much as I can & be organised & in control & knowing what I know kinda makes me feel a lil better

Me & my OH have completely different views when it comes to money, as long as everything is paid out then that's the main thing & anything left over is a bonus. I always think of my mum & dad when I was growing, never had 2 pennies to rub together & still don't but they got by & coped amazingly so I know that whatever happens, we will be fine, as long as you stick & work together , anything is possible. Hes always wanted to be financially stable, which sounds great but isn't always going to happen, fair enough have savings if your lucky to be able to but you can't put your life on hold & save forever for the 'what if' or 'just in case' your life will just pass you by & I'm not prepared to put things on hold anymore, we have done for pretty much the whole of our relationship

Ahhhh my weight loss. Well I've always been a real foodie & would eat what I want & when I wanted it, comments were made & the OH would look at girls that were slim blonde barbies but non of this bothered me at all, I was happy with me, had the usual girlie hang ups but nothing out of the ordinary. Then went to work abroad in march 2007, although only last a week & come home but they took your measurements for uniform & my hips measured at 42.5 inches, I was distraught after hearing that so when I got back home I made it my mission to lose weight. I undertook the slim fast diet for 3 months & it was working until I got ill & had to stop. I got a really nasty ear infection that was caused by a gut bacteria cos of the slim fast & was off work for 2 months. Once I recovered I just continued to eat healthy, lots of salad, fruit, ryvita, cheese & chicken so the next 7 months the weight continued to drop off. In march 2008 I'd reached a size 8 but as the OH went off to the US for 3 months with work I decided to join the gym to get toned. At the beginning was great but then it all changed & it took over my life, I increased my workout regime & decreased my food intake on the quest for the 'perfect body' & caused more issues with my weight & food & in the end was diagnosed with an eating disorder & depression. This was back in September 2009, I stopped the gym & my running, which helped but continued to battle on with my eating, it's not 100% now but so much better

Oooooooo my symptoms.....still there, panicked earlier as thought the got me but no, just a nice creamy wet patch (sorry TMI) Everything the same, boobs extremely sore & hurt when I'm walking now & feel like they are throbbing & the only new symptom is my permanently erect nipples, the skins really dry & they are a pinky/reddy colour when normally a beige colour so just waiting it out now

Christ, I've written an essay, hope not sent you to sleep

How's you my lovely, you had a good day?

xxxxxx

 

[mookie]

Morning!!

If you don't mind me asking how old are you and your OH? How long have you been together?
We have been together a little over 4 years, OH is 34 and I'm 24. I know what you mean about money. My family always had money and OH and I don't but I prefer it this way! I've learnt so much! I've learnt to cook completely from scratch and I'm brilliant at making something from nothing We are still paying off the last couple of debts from when OH was unemployed, so at xmas we bought ourselves and beaky presents but for everyone else I made things- Limoncello, chilli jelly, chocolate hokie pokie (basically it was a crunchie), body scrub, brownie in a jar, phone socks and sock monsters for my sisters and brother. Everyone loved them! I felt really great doing it too! I even learnt to use a sewing machine so I could make my dad a BBQ apron.
We tried to save money for having children but very quickly learnt you can never have enough money! If you wait until you do, you will never have children so we decided to go for it. It can be stressful at times but beaky has no concept of money and sometimes we can be really tight for money but he doesn't know, he's really happy, he has a mummy and daddy that love him so much and he has his bunny and baby blanket!
I guess it helps I'm such a cheap date! We don't go abroad as my anxiety makes me think the plane will fall out of the sky and a boat will sink! Give my the coast, an ice cream and 2p machines and I'm happy! (some sun helps too).

I love my food, I don't over eat, just enjoy eating. My dad had an affair when we were kids, but mum and dad are back together now but I was relied on a lot, my support was food, I comfort ate. I still struggle with it now but I'm a lot better. Food makes me happy, I love making food and watching people enjoy something I've made!! I tried all sorts of diets, slimfast wasn't fantastic, drinking that amount of milk just didn't agree with me and I'm really grumpy when I'm hungry! In the end I went to a diet clinic, paid £80 a month for pills to stop me being hungry , I was on them for 6 months and lost a couple of stone but only now do I realise how bad the side effects were - irregular heart beat, being snappy, dizzy all the time, sick, I was like a zombie. It was only a couple of moths ago when I went to the doctors I found out they have been pull from the market I'm glad your better now, I bed your gorgeous!! Being a size 8 will also mean a baby bump should show sooner not like me probably would see mind until I'm 9 months.

I keep having a panic, I wake up in the night thinking I'm bleeding when I'm not. Just before I was due I bought some always - thought if I don't buy them I'll bleed and if I buy them I won't and I'll be pregnant It worked in my crazy mind!! I've got a few pains at the mo, like a dull ache, I really hope it's just everything stretching.
I bet this reply is longer than yours and it stops you getting bored.

Dropped a plate on my foot last night, shouted 'OH SHIT', a little voice behind me said 'oh shizz' 'mumma ok?' They really do learn quickly

Hope your ok xxx