WILMAFLINSTONE
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........today!
Af came today after a very dubious looking possible positive yesterday turned out it was waht I suspected and a smudge on test....so then AF turns up this morning....again I was 'ok' with this thinking well after MC af has arrived and hopefully cycle will get back to normal if its not already....
Then my sis in law whos just told me last week shes pregnant phoned to say she was coming over and I was all excited to see her and my 5 month old niece Ruby....THEN..........my best friend from school who Ive not seen since the day before I MC came over and told me shes pregnant!
Ive done nothing but cry....Im totally devastated....that Im im not pregnant, that she is and that shes my friend who we laughed and planned on being in the labour ward together one day and now its all happening for her and Ive lost our baby! I just cant stop crying and I thought I had everything under control and was dealing with it all!
In reality I now think I have just been putting on a brave face and smiling to the world while inside Im just want to scream and crumble!
Why am I so happy and I really am happy that Im getting a new niece or nephew....yet I feel nothing but envy, jealousy and resentment towards my friend....this is not like me I am really close to her and now I literally want to tell her to go to hell for hurting me even more by telling me shes pregnant when Im still in bits of having a MC 4 weeks ago....
I feel so bad for feeling so horrible towards her but I am feeling completely destroyed by her good news!!
I want to crawl in a hole and stay there till I have a baby and not face anyone else.....whats wrong with me Im not a horrible person, I do anything to help anyone, I am always the first person everyone turns to for help advice and support so why the hell have I suddenly turned into a selfish bitter and nasty cow today all because of this news!!
She text me this even saying shes knows Im gutted by her news.....what can I say.....Oh no In over the moon for you both....COZ IM BLOODY WELL NOT!!!
I dont like feeling or thinking like this....am I the only one whos furious at the world for carrying on and getting pregnant and living their lives just coz mine has had the trauma of a MC??
So sorry girls but I cant stop crying my head is killing of winging all efffing day and my eyes are almost closed Ive cried that much.....xxxx
Af came today after a very dubious looking possible positive yesterday turned out it was waht I suspected and a smudge on test....so then AF turns up this morning....again I was 'ok' with this thinking well after MC af has arrived and hopefully cycle will get back to normal if its not already....
Then my sis in law whos just told me last week shes pregnant phoned to say she was coming over and I was all excited to see her and my 5 month old niece Ruby....THEN..........my best friend from school who Ive not seen since the day before I MC came over and told me shes pregnant!
Ive done nothing but cry....Im totally devastated....that Im im not pregnant, that she is and that shes my friend who we laughed and planned on being in the labour ward together one day and now its all happening for her and Ive lost our baby! I just cant stop crying and I thought I had everything under control and was dealing with it all!
In reality I now think I have just been putting on a brave face and smiling to the world while inside Im just want to scream and crumble!
Why am I so happy and I really am happy that Im getting a new niece or nephew....yet I feel nothing but envy, jealousy and resentment towards my friend....this is not like me I am really close to her and now I literally want to tell her to go to hell for hurting me even more by telling me shes pregnant when Im still in bits of having a MC 4 weeks ago....
I feel so bad for feeling so horrible towards her but I am feeling completely destroyed by her good news!!
I want to crawl in a hole and stay there till I have a baby and not face anyone else.....whats wrong with me Im not a horrible person, I do anything to help anyone, I am always the first person everyone turns to for help advice and support so why the hell have I suddenly turned into a selfish bitter and nasty cow today all because of this news!!
She text me this even saying shes knows Im gutted by her news.....what can I say.....Oh no In over the moon for you both....COZ IM BLOODY WELL NOT!!!
I dont like feeling or thinking like this....am I the only one whos furious at the world for carrying on and getting pregnant and living their lives just coz mine has had the trauma of a MC??
So sorry girls but I cant stop crying my head is killing of winging all efffing day and my eyes are almost closed Ive cried that much.....xxxx
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