I agreed to go to a parents forum meeting for the local surestart group.The woman in charge of surestart for our area sits on my daughters school governing body to which im vice cahair (not for much longer).anyway the meeting was this morning and they were providing a creche.I turned up and spoke to the woman and she said i needed to go round the other door to the creche.so off i trotted and i stood there in the car park in the rain and it was like my feet were stuck to the floor.I couldnt do it i just couldnt put caden in the creche.i stood for 15 minutes!In theend i just got back in the car and drove away without even telling ayone.i feel a bit silly now but i just couldnt do it.see im silly