fed up!!

[hayels]

well title says it all really just fed up of not being pregnant. still find it so crazy that i have been pregnant 4 times and lost them all. never in my wildest dreams did i think this would happen when i got my first bfp. i want a baby so much and there are so many people who have babies that dont want them why is in it them who this happens to instead. i know that sounds horrid cos i wouldnt wish it on any one really but why cant it be them? sorry to go on just having bad day. hope you dont mind me moaning (sorry) xx

 

[karenandbump]

Oh hon, I think we have all felt this way after losing our precious babies so don't feel bad - u have been through so much and we're all here for u hon so rant away - big hugs and hoping for a bfp and sticky bean for u x x x

 

[Princess81]

Rant away Hun when I mc'd I found myself thinking how unfair it all was, and it is unfair. Sending u lots of love xx

 

[laurat]

As the others have said you say what makes you feel better. It doesnt seem fair at all sometimes! There are good days and bad. Hopefully today will be better for you!

 

[Nurse 26]

hey hayles, know how you feel, like a total rollercoaster of emotions, it really sucks thinking about babies 24/7.

Hows things coming along with tests, appointments ect? i have my results appointment on wed.

Big hugs.

xx

 

[hayels]

its crap is in it nurse. we went in again bout 2 weeks ago for more bloods but she said i wont hear till prob the end july start of aug. so just got to wait really she told us not to try again till after these results are back. hope wed goes ok for you let me know xxxxxxxx

 

[Nurse 26]

I had my appoitment today hayles and i've updated it in my journal as kinda long. xx

 

[hayels]

ok on my way to read it now xxxxx

 

[JJ Mum]

Hayels , you can rant away hun, you have had a really tough time. I have only lost one, so can't fully imagine how you have felt. It may not seem it now, but I think you are coping soo well with all of this, and I know your going to get through this hun , with a lovely happy ending XX

 

[sarah1]

Hi Hayels..... just wanted to offer support and a big hug. Waiting is awful isn't it? You're probably tired of all the 'hang in there, it'll happen soon' stuff so I won't rabbit on. Just know you aren't alone in the big fat waiting game. Do you have any holidays coming up? We have just booked a summer hol and can't wait to get away from all the TTC problems and just be a couple again - might be a good idea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx lots of love xxxxxx

 

[Applecider]

sending you hugs hayels hope ur ok XXXXX

 

[08Princess]

I know its pointless to ask 'why' but so difficult not to.

I was diagnosed with a missed miscarriage today and the bottom has fallen out of my world
How do I pick myself up?
I wish I could sleep but am afraid to cos when I wake up I'll remember.
I'm scared for it to get dark cos I'll be alone with my thoughts

All I can think is baby, baby, baby and how much I want to still be pregnant.

I know you all feel the same. I'm so scared of my hurt and my emotions.

I'm so sorry to every single woman who has lost a baby at any stage. Why do we have to go through this?

I always try to be a good person and to be kind to others but karma doesn't seem to recognise that

 

[dita_parlo]

Hi Hayels. I hope you're coping as well as can be hun. I completly know how you feel. For any woman to go through this once is bad enough, but for it to happen as much as it has is really heartbreaking. I know exactly how you feel hunny, if you ever need to talk you can PM me