Emotional roller coaster

[Gee1240]

Morning all. I thought I would come here and vent as you will understand how I am feeling. So I found out I was pregnant on 27th of december. On 6th of December I had a small bleed so contacted doctor on Mon. Since then I had first scan where they saw a gestational sack but it was empty and the was a queryif I has miscarried or ectopic. Hcg levels were 10 000. I had a second scan this time there was a yolk but nothing else so had to wait another 12days to have another scan. Had another scan today where they could see a possibly feotal pole but no heart beat. As I type this I am waiting to see a specialist nurse. I feel so lost and don't know how to feel. Will update if I hear anymore. Sorry for the long post