hjones
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My boyfriend left me a few weeks ago. We had been together 5 years and always had a rocky relationship but this year things had started to improve massively. Then we had a little argument and he left. I thought he just needed some time and didn't really think anything of it, then after a couple of weeks he told me he had a new girlfriend. I was absolutely devastated.I never saw it coming at all. Then a few days later I discovered I was pregnant. I told him straight away and he acted as tho he really couldn't care less. We already have a son together and he has been seeing him about twice a week since he left and its been awful having to see him and we always end up arguing and he's been really horrible to me. So I have been trying to prepare myself for doing this on my own and being without him and focusing on all the horrible things to tell myself I'm better off without him. The thing is after all he has done I still love him and stupidly still want him back. When he dropped our son off at the weekend he was here 20 mins and he was actually nice to me again and it was like we used to be and I knew I just don't wanna let go. I keep telling myself I should hate him, he's never even asked how I am in the pregnancy or even when the baby is due, but I don't know how to get by without him . I believed this new girlfriend was a rebound but I have to face up to the fact it might actually last and that I have lost him for good I just don't know how!!
Sorry for long post needed to get if off my chest!
Sorry for long post needed to get if off my chest!