No not against just trying to hold out for as long as I can. It took me so long to come off high dose medications so I could get pregnant and I don't know, just feel defeated as silly as that sounds, i thought I could do it. Even though I'm usually the one helping to promote good mental health and that medications do have their place when needed, I don't feel the same for myself. Typical cant take my own advice. I had a really bad experience with the mental health team in the past and I was annoyed when midwife referred me with out even letting me know, I found out from GP. They were not very supportive of me going back to work or going off medications I relied heavily on voluntary services to get me through. My GP was very understanding and wants monthly reviews of mental health to keep an eye on how im feeling but I didn't make an appointment in June just dreading it.