Hi Tonks
I feel the same, i'm not looking forward to SPD again either or the birth lol, i was rather disturbed last time but its all totally worth it, id go through much worse. Least im prepared this time.
I've wanted this baby which completes my family for a long time (even before my partner came along, as i was a single mum majority of my daughters life, i've had partners but not a proper family). My partner has 2 children, a girl 9 & a boy that's 5, my daughters 10 and our 2 girls are BFF's hehe. It's really lovely that a little human will bind us together as a proper family. It's my dream
! x