Just thought id update now. Baby is STILL breech i felt his head at top again, looks like a csection is going to be my only option. Im talking to midwife tomorrow as if i have a section i want it at 37weeks as itll be the start of my daughters summer holidays so atleast ill be slightly better by the time my daughter starts school. Iv been up all night crying because baby is clearly stuck where he is coz hes so big and i feel like poo because i no i wont have any more kids if im cut open and i suffered from dpression when me and my ex split and it never fully went and i think itll come back really bad if i have a section. Just really dunno what to do or feel right now. My OH is worried incase anything happens to me or baby as he lost his dad 2/3 years ago and he doesnt want to lose anyone else especialy me. Just feel so useless and i blame the baby because my body knows what to do he just wont work with my body to turn.
All my worst fears will happen in 1 day, a drip, epidural, cathita, operation, not being able to hold my baby for ages and being stuck in hospital for at least 3 nights. I cant see the positive side to having a baby anymore. x