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My bf and i are together 6 years and talked about the future..and we both want a baby in 3-4 years max. I was fine up until 3 years ago i decided to research everything and anything on pregnancy and came across articles how these young "healthy" women died of brain aneurysms or embolisims and ever since then im convinced it will happen to me. I was born 25 weeks gestation myself so im always wondering "what it i have brain or heart AVM because i was a microbaby they call us"(weak artery) then when i get pregnant it bursts and i die! or i end up with Amniotic fluid embolism even though its "rare" i worry, i don't want to die during pregnancy or giving birth! i want to raise my baby.
Im stuck...i don't know what to do. Should i give into my fear and leave my boyfriend so he can find someone that will get pregnant with little fear OR should i just go ahead and have faith things will go okay?
I actually had nervous break down Sunday because my anxiety got really bad..i keep thinking maybe i should break up with my bf , he deserves to live his life. I told my bf this Sunday and barely said anything..just to talk to my therapist more, he thinks im not telling my therapist everything, i told my bf i don't think anyone says will really help, may just have to not have kids because im way to afraid.
He hasn't mentioned anything since Sunday...I'm worried that he thinks i will "just get over it" or maybe he is doing what he said before " he is accepting me for me" maybe he is okay if i just can't go through with pregnancy now seeing how scared i am. What if he never proposes due to this? or if we get married and he ends up resenting me due to me not trying possibly? (i did tell my bf i am afraid he will end up resenting me the night i was freaking out but he never said anything to that)
opinions/advice?
thanks
Im stuck...i don't know what to do. Should i give into my fear and leave my boyfriend so he can find someone that will get pregnant with little fear OR should i just go ahead and have faith things will go okay?
I actually had nervous break down Sunday because my anxiety got really bad..i keep thinking maybe i should break up with my bf , he deserves to live his life. I told my bf this Sunday and barely said anything..just to talk to my therapist more, he thinks im not telling my therapist everything, i told my bf i don't think anyone says will really help, may just have to not have kids because im way to afraid.
He hasn't mentioned anything since Sunday...I'm worried that he thinks i will "just get over it" or maybe he is doing what he said before " he is accepting me for me" maybe he is okay if i just can't go through with pregnancy now seeing how scared i am. What if he never proposes due to this? or if we get married and he ends up resenting me due to me not trying possibly? (i did tell my bf i am afraid he will end up resenting me the night i was freaking out but he never said anything to that)
opinions/advice?
thanks
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