HaylzDz
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Hi all, not really looking for advice but just want to get my thoughts down as I’ve been struggling recently.
This is my first pregnancy, I’m 22 weeks and having a little boy. I’ve been so so lucky as it was all planned, happened very quickly and have had no problems so far. Myself and my husband are both really excited but recently I’ve been getting really upset that my own mum isn’t around.
I’m 31 and lost my mum to a brain tumour 5 years ago. I wasn’t a child but I do feel like I was young and it makes me really sad that she can’t be here for this. Even when kids weren’t part of my imminent plans she would always harp on about how she would love to go part time at work and look after her grand babies.
I’m a pretty independent person and I don’t feel like I need her here for advice or anything like that but I just feel like something is missing and a real sadness that I can’t shake.
I was always close to my dad but he remarried last year and moved 500 miles away a few years ago to be with his new partner. We’re not as close anymore and since telling him about the baby he’s been a bit strange. I think he’s missing my mum too but he doesn’t ever open up so who knows.
I think what’s tipped me over the edge is that they were up for a visit this weekend and it just hit me that in reality his new wife is pretty much a stranger to me. As much as I like her, due to the distance I’ve only really met her about 10 times. I’ve always been so supportive of him being happy but I’m having these awful thoughts that’s I really just don’t want her around. I don’t want her to be my child’s granny and I don’t want my mum to be forgotten. I don’t really want her trying to help out which I know she will. I know I’m just being emotional and petty but I’m not sure how to get over how I’m feeling.
Sorry for the essay, just feeling sorry for myself today xxx
This is my first pregnancy, I’m 22 weeks and having a little boy. I’ve been so so lucky as it was all planned, happened very quickly and have had no problems so far. Myself and my husband are both really excited but recently I’ve been getting really upset that my own mum isn’t around.
I’m 31 and lost my mum to a brain tumour 5 years ago. I wasn’t a child but I do feel like I was young and it makes me really sad that she can’t be here for this. Even when kids weren’t part of my imminent plans she would always harp on about how she would love to go part time at work and look after her grand babies.
I’m a pretty independent person and I don’t feel like I need her here for advice or anything like that but I just feel like something is missing and a real sadness that I can’t shake.
I was always close to my dad but he remarried last year and moved 500 miles away a few years ago to be with his new partner. We’re not as close anymore and since telling him about the baby he’s been a bit strange. I think he’s missing my mum too but he doesn’t ever open up so who knows.
I think what’s tipped me over the edge is that they were up for a visit this weekend and it just hit me that in reality his new wife is pretty much a stranger to me. As much as I like her, due to the distance I’ve only really met her about 10 times. I’ve always been so supportive of him being happy but I’m having these awful thoughts that’s I really just don’t want her around. I don’t want her to be my child’s granny and I don’t want my mum to be forgotten. I don’t really want her trying to help out which I know she will. I know I’m just being emotional and petty but I’m not sure how to get over how I’m feeling.
Sorry for the essay, just feeling sorry for myself today xxx