I'm only so organised cos I'm nosey! lol.
This first tri stuff is such a rollercoaster. One minute I'm reading a scan post and feeling all happy for people with their scans, and the next I'm feeling the heartache of the ladies who've miscarried/had eptopic pregnancies. I love the support everyone gives each other on here and the fact that we share everything when we're worried and stuff. And I don't mean anything I say to sound bad. I'm so sorry for what you girls have been through, and you're so brave and strong, stronger than I've been before now.

I'm sorry my replies to your threads are normally just hugs, i can never find the words to say. xx
I'm still amazed that i've gotten so far, and when i read trixies/buddabuns threads about being the furthest along they've been for awhile/ever and I feel like that too. And I've still got this massive fear. But I just don't know how to deal with it...
On another forum i'm on (an xbox one) its a small forum and we're all close friends and I've told a few people, and they try and reassure me, but most of them are boys, so it just doesn't feel the same just an "i'm sure you'll be fine" or whatever boys say lol.
And last night I tried talking to G (OH) and he just fell asleep. I get that he's tired, but sometimes I need him to make me feel better sometimes, and he just falls asleep. Like he just doesn't get how scared I get. And then when I think about when the baby is here what if i'm shattered and i need him to do something and he just falls asleep. And then i get worried about that. But the majority of the time I'm just scared that god/the powers that be are just playinng a cruel trick on me, and i'm terrified if this pregnancy doesn't go to term that it'll break me so much more than the previous miscarriages.
Sorry for rambling on. Think I just needed a release
I'm doing ok though, just taking each day at a time.
xx