Hi Lynette,
So sorry to hear you are feeling down, it is a horrible horrible, quite lonely experience. I am still waiting to M/C, so I don't really know how I am going to feel after it all, but I do know that this is one of the toughest expeirences of my life.
If you don't feel comofrtable with counselling/antidepressants, then don't feel pressured into going down that route. They help for some people, but for others they simply don't. Only you know what will help and what won't
I think sometimes having a good 'let go', having a drink if thats what you like, helps get things out of your system. This wkend, me and my husband had a bottle of wine, maybe not the best idea since I am expecting to M/C any day, but it helped us relax.
With time, things WILL get better. I know this for definite, I had a termination 10 years ago and for months after I felt like I had a big heavy wait over me, but it will lift I can assure you
Positive thinking is very powerful, do something that makes you feel good, something you enjoy
Be kind to yourself hun xxxx