Sarah1 - thanks for your reply.. I am sorry that you had to go through all that pain and loss.. it really makes you soul search doesn't it.. but its nice to know that feeling ok about it is not giving up.. it does not take away from what happened, but its nice to be able to look ahead and feel positive regardless of whether or not children will feature.. that said, I will alway wonder what it would have been like to be a mum, but at least I gave it my best shot..
I know how you feel re the not crying not being sad etc.. and grief is a very strange thing and no two miscarriages are the same.. for me each one was unique, in the way it happened, how I felt, how my body recovered etc.. sometimes I think shock takes over and its so epic that there is no choice but to "not deal" with it for a while.. thats ok too..
I really hope the treatment you are getting will prove a roaring success! I find that when I do things for myself such as a spinning class, yoga class and make lots of plans with good friends that I am less likely to sink into sad days.. I think having love in your life is the most important thing and whether that is family, friends, pets, whatever.. embrace it and be grateful..
Keep me posted on how you are getting on.... feel free to PM if you wish..
Peace out x x x x x x x x