I lost my first child 17 weeks into pregnancy and it was devestating I nearly died and my partner had to sign consent forms to save my life, luckily I was stills able to go on and have 2 more children and I am a mummy of 3 now 
, I found out last week after some strange heavy bleeding I was pregnant again Huge shock but I was happy and getting used to the idea of child number 4, sadly that hasn't happened again I have miscarried absolutely gutted , I am very grateful for my 3 wonderful and happy children but I feel guilty fir feeling sad??? I was really getting used to the idea of a 4th child even excited, to have this happen again is soul destroying - thankfully didn't have to be rushes to theatre or even hospital this time but it still hurts so badly
, I found out last week after some strange heavy bleeding I was pregnant again Huge shock but I was happy and getting used to the idea of child number 4, sadly that hasn't happened again I have miscarried absolutely gutted , I am very grateful for my 3 wonderful and happy children but I feel guilty fir feeling sad??? I was really getting used to the idea of a 4th child even excited, to have this happen again is soul destroying - thankfully didn't have to be rushes to theatre or even hospital this time but it still hurts so badly
