Glad you have brought this up as I am really nosey!
Mines not so happy but has a nice ending... if you can be bothered to read it all!
We had made the decision that we did not want any more children. I had suffered quite severley with PND after Ds was born, DS was independent, our finances were better, we had advanced in our carreers and basically we didnt want to have to do it all again with a new born.
As far as we were conserned our family was compleate and on that basis DH had had the snip. I was always very paranoid about becoming PG and his sterilization had made me relax a tiny bit.
I was actually looking into becoming a surrogate as it was something I had always wanted to do and had started to look at potential couples we could help through an agency. This meant that I was in the mind set any babies I may have would definatly not be additons to our family and i had mentally prepared myself for the fact that I would carry someone elses LO for them.
I had annual leave for half term which was also my DS birthday. During this week I had to support and counsel my best friend as she had found out she was PG under horrible circumstances. I sat for hours supporting her, chatting about options and finally agreeing that for her situation she was right to have an abortion.
at the same time my sister was PG (exactly the same dates as my friend) and her pregnancy was very much wanted, she was experiencing bad bleeds and desperatly clinging onto this baby. I had accompanied her to several emergency scans and watched her heart break when they tried to find a heart beat. Im pleased to say now baby is very healthy.
and she is due two days after me!!
I was exhausted dealing with these extream mixed emotions, I love them both dearly and their situations were so different it was a realrolercoaster!
I was sat with my sis one afternoonand looked down at my boobs and thought bloody hell they are really pointed!! I started to feel really sick iconstantly and had not had a period since before xmas. I thought it was the emotional rollercoaster I was going through and sympathy pains!
Hubby brought a test as I was getting suspicious about my symptoms, but I didnt want to be paranoid so hoped the symptoms would vanish without the need to test, I had also recently come off the mini pill and coil I had (told you i was paranoid!!) so I procrastinated in taking the testincase it was hormone cahnges from that.
One morning I decided whilst DH was still in bed to take the test and it was instantly BFP. I couldnt cope with the result, I sat and cied until DH got up and it took me ages to tell him what was wrong, he instantly said we should have a termination as we clearly had no plans for another LO. He was quite flippant about it, which is basically how i was with my friend, but this was alot more complicated than that. I cried constantly for 2 days and was so ill with MS walked around like a zombie.
We booked a termination as it seemed the right thing to do but some thing kept making me question the decision, the day before the date it was booked, we went to a restraunt and talked about pros and cons and agreed to keep this LO as that option made me cry the least I called the GP in the morning and cancelled the termination.
Everyone that knew about the situation (and it was a few as I was so upset and ill) was so relieved as they all seemed to think we should have this LO.
It took alot of mourning our old plans to get over the fact that we are having another child which might seem selfish to those that have been TTC for along time but I hope you understand slightly why I felt this way. It took several weeks for me to stop crying and be able to talk to other people about the pregnancy, or rather the fact we were having a baby. someone saing congratulations would make me a hysterical mess until I had my head around it.
I have also had to get my head around having a girl as (due to my childhood) I have been Very paranoid about abuse and have always stated that I would find it very hard emotionally to try and protect a girl.
We are now VERY Happy to be having another LO and am looking forward to a girl (especially as there has not been a girl in my husbands family for generations) we have decided that this LO definatley wanted to be with us and it is obviously fate that she is coming into the world. I dont regret having the emotions I did as it confirms we have made the right decision to keep this lO and I actually think that in the long run she is more wanted than any child we may have TTC as the easier option would have been to kept that appointment and crried on with our lives.
Sory its so long but its a complicated story!!