Elfs Mummy
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after three healthy pregnancies you don’t expect to end up here.
The moment you see that line your a Mummy, you can see that perfect baby at the end of it. Your thoughts immediately jump to Christmas with three kids running around and a baby lying there staring at the lights on a tree.
You can see yourself taking your daughter to school with the boys running along the drive and a baby in a sling.
You imagine tandem feeding and wonder
If the toddler will share.
You see that baby lying on a blanket with a woolie hat and cord tie posing for you announcement.
You think of names, will it be a boy or girl?
You see your other children meeting the baby for the first time.
You picture that baby sitting in a high chair ready to taste it’s first food.
You see yourself as a family of six.
Then just like that you see the blood, you know that it’s over and all the things you saw are no more.
Then there’s the guilt.
Then more blood.
Then the wait for it to be over.
The moment you see that line your a Mummy, you can see that perfect baby at the end of it. Your thoughts immediately jump to Christmas with three kids running around and a baby lying there staring at the lights on a tree.
You can see yourself taking your daughter to school with the boys running along the drive and a baby in a sling.
You imagine tandem feeding and wonder
If the toddler will share.
You see that baby lying on a blanket with a woolie hat and cord tie posing for you announcement.
You think of names, will it be a boy or girl?
You see your other children meeting the baby for the first time.
You picture that baby sitting in a high chair ready to taste it’s first food.
You see yourself as a family of six.
Then just like that you see the blood, you know that it’s over and all the things you saw are no more.
Then there’s the guilt.
Then more blood.
Then the wait for it to be over.