Worst weekend of my life!!

[hayley_17]

i am so fed up today!! have been all weekend and just dont want to get out of bed. when i do, i get a bath and just lay on my bed. i dont want to do anything i feel so crappy. it just seems to be one thing after another lately. ive been getting pains which i can only describe as period pains since last night and they are driving me mad.
as for babys dad, he is the biggest waste of space ever!! i havent heard from him since early december when he decided he wanted nothing to do with me or the baby. it doesnt make me sad anymore though, im fine with it, i no me and my little boy are better off without him. dont feel bad for saying anything though!! you didnt no!!
am sort of ready incase i have to have a c- section early!! i just need to get my moses basket which my mums friend is bringing over from england next weekend. they dont sell moses baskets over here so its quite lucky that my mums friend is coming over for the weekend!!
hayley xx

 

[hayley]

oohh hayley things are not getting better for you are they! does a warm bath ease your pains at all? i supose your doing the best thing and just relaxing... i know this can be really boring thou!

sorry i had no idea about your babies dad... as you say your doing better without! you sound like you have a really caring family who are behind you all the way... and thats all you and your son need...

i was going to opt for a moses basket but decided to go for a swinging crib instead... there is so much stuff out there to choose from! i ordered mine online...

hope the pains ease up - with a bit of luck your son might be just about ready to come out! if he's ready then he's healthy... can't stop a baby that is ready... good luck!

x

 

[Sarah&Braydon]

awwww i babes i am so sorry u aint feeling all hayley likei hope u r feeling happier soon ne closer to having a name?

 

[hayley_17]

i did get in a warm bath about 4 times yesterday... it didnt really help too much but i just kept doing it... dont no why lol i keep getting this thing where im really hungry but dont want to eat anything in the house and if i smell any food i feel really sick its so weird!! feeling alot better today which is great, this is the first day in about 2 weeks that ive actually felt like myself!! still getting bad braxton hicks though

dont be sorry about saying that about my babies dad!! you didnt no so its totally fine yeh im defo doing better without but the thought of being a single mum in a few weeks is quite scary... i do have a great family, dont no what id do without them!!

im hoping he decides that he wants to come soon... these pains are driving me crazy and i just want to be me again and have my body back...

havent really got a name yet 4 him sarah... not even been thinking about it in the last few weeks... should really start thinking lol

hayley xx

 

[Amanda]

Aww Hayley, you are going through it aren't you hun. I don't know how I managed to miss this post before, but I've only just read it!

You are doing the best thing be resting, but if the pain gets any worse, ring the midwife again.

Take care of yourself.
x

 

[Sarah&Braydon]

hayley name him sarah after me hell only be teased a bit ll

 

[hayley_17]

lmao yeh sarah he'll only get picked on a little bit

ive got another scan tomorrow... i cant wait... when i had a scan on monday when i was at hospital he looked so amazing... like he was ready 4 the world i cant wait to see him tomorrow hehe i no that he is still breech so they should decide what they are going to do when ive had the scan... they will probs make me go back at 37 weeks and if hes still breech then they will book me in for a cesarean at 38 weeks quite scary really!!

feeling okish today... im hating this not sleeping thing though... killing me at the moment because im up about 4/5 times a night to go to the toilet it wouldnt be so bad if i was getting up because my little boy needed me but right now its just so annoying!!

god it seems like all i do is moan!! soz!!

hayley xx

 

[Keely]

know how you feel hayley.

I am very jealous of your scans, but feel for you that he has not turnt!! little bugger! hehe

will you get a c section date tomorrow if he has not turnt?

xx

 

[hayley]

happy that they're giving you another scan.. it'll be nice to see your little fella again... i think mine is back to lying across.. which is biggest - bum or head? because i have a big lump sticking out on the left side below belly button... do you know which way your little boy is lying (across or bum down?)

good luck - hope he's turned for you...
x

 

[hayley_17]

it was so lovely 2 see him 2day... the woman doing the scan said hes big lol yeh i got a date for my c- section... 10th july im kinda nervous about it!!

my little boy looks like he is slightly sat up lol his head is between my ribs at the top, his body is down my left side, his bum is in my pelvis and his arms and legs are on my right side lol he looked so funny!! lol

hehe its weird to no that in a few weeks he'll be here

xx

 

[Keely]

oh my god hayley you got a date!!! and its 5 days before my due date!! hehe ... you beat me!!!!!

Oh I am so excited for you, I wish I knew a excate date my boy was coming! .... have you got everything ready now, other then the mose basket ... will your mums friend be with you in time for the mose basket.

OOOOOO I am really excited for you! xxxxx

 

[hayley_17]

lol keely your little man might still beat mine!! he might decide he wants to arrive a few days early and beat me haha

ive got more or less everything... but might have to end up getting a german style moses basket which i didnt want. my mums friend rang, shes coming this weekend. she rang all the mothercares close to where she lives and none of them have the white pleat moses basket i wanted was really annoyed but shes going to look in the little town where she lives, because i just wanted one with like white covers and stuff. so hopefully, fingers crossed i can still get an english basket!!

im really excited too hehe

xxx

 

[Sarah&Braydon]

aww hun come on MSN

 

[Keely]

I just got the cheapest mose basket from babies r us, blue and yellow cos i think there are only in it for a few months and some are soooo expensive

but it is still so cute

http://www.toysrus.co.uk/Product.aspx/B ... ref=Search

xxxx

 

[hayley_17]

soz sarah... my msn has been playing up the last few days... wont let me on my dads not at work today so hes guna sort it out so i should be able to get on later

yeh keely i dont want a really expensive one... i dont see the point. a friend of mine paid 85 quid for hers and used it for about 8 weeks! it was really nice but i wouldnt pay that much!! my mums friend is getting the ferry tonight and will be here tomorrow so fingers crossed she will have got one lol that moses basket you chose is really nice, if i could have got to england i would have got something like that

xxxx

 

[Keely]

how you feeling today hayley? have the pains subsided.

you got a nice wkend planned then with your mums friend? and bbqs and game watching? xxx

 

[hayley_17]

i actually feel awful 2day... i was really happy when i woke up but now i feel really stressed and just upset. the pains have been bearable for a few days but now they are worse, having bad braxton hicks aswell and feel sooo upset

i didnt get alot of sleep last night so am feeling quite tired and thats making me worse i think. ive tried to go back to sleep but i cant. i went up to my room, closed the door & curtains, turned the tv off, had a bath and tried to go to sleep but i couldnt and that stressed me out. then i came downstairs to come on here and the house was really messy. no-one had hoovered or tidied up... i felt so mad. i tidy up the house and expect people to know how to put things in the dishwasher my brothers dirty stuff from his lunch were just on the side in the kitchen along with about 4 glasses because everytime he has a drink he has a new glass. hes 22 and hes so messy. i didnt even bother saying anything to him, its not worth it he doesnt listen. so i tidied the kitchen and then i hoovered all downstairs. i feel so angry at my brother but then i feel guilty too because i feel like i shouldnt be having a go at him or anything because hes my big brother and he does always ask if im feeling ok and stuff. then i banged my hand and its killing me and has bruised already

feel stupid for moaning but if i dont moan on here ill just cry my mums at work so i cant talk to her and i think im going to go mad. i dont feel like a person anymore, its like people dont care how i am all they ask is how is the baby. i no hes the most important thing etc but it would be nice once in a while if people asked how i was its sounds so selfish i no, im just really fed up with everything

on a better note, hopefully the weather will warm up a bit over the weekend and we will have a better one! mum & dads friends get here tomorrow and my dad, brother & the guy who is coming (forgot his name ) are all going into town to watch the germany game on a big screen, im not allowed to go. my dad thinks the smokey atmosphere and all the noise will annoy me when they get back we are hoping to have a bbq and stuff and watch the next match! my mum & anne are staying here they will probs just talk about everything, they havent seen each other 4 a while and they both love 2 talk! not sure about sunday but it will be watching football and eating either sunday lunch or whatever my mum makes lol

sorry 4 the moan.. feel like its all i ever do now are you getting up to much this weekend?? xxx

 

[Keely]

arr babe I know how you feel I had a bad day monday where i just cried all day! I feel better now.

It is so true that it will be lovely to be your own person soon, and not hayley and baby.

your brother sounds like all brothers infact he sounds like all 22 yr old blokes! lazy git. Dont feel guilty for telling him off, all the time you are clearing up after him he will keep being a slob cos he dont see it is a problem!! have a good shout, then apologise later blaming it on the hormones but tell him you still need his help some times.

I am going bluewater tomorrow to get some nursing bras with my mum and lil sis as OH has to work, then sunday just watching game etc. My new carpets are being fitted monday so after that i can start the babies room.

hope you feel better later sweety xxxxx

 

[hayley_17]

im feeling alrite now... it was awful though... never felt that bad!! all last night and today ive been having bad braxton hicks and have diarrhea (sp? oh & soz if tmi lol) im so uncomfortable cant do anything without being in pain its really warm here today aswell ... grrr... i hate it being hot when i feel like a beached whale lol ive only got 2 weeks left but its going so slow!!

well on friday i spoke to my mum and she spoke to my brother about it... and he was fine but i completley blew my top with him on friday night. my mum and dad went out 4 a meal and my brother kept moaning that i was awful to him because i wouldnt let him play on my laptop. he kept saying i do so much 4 u and you do nothing 4 me and he just completley stressed me out so i just had a go at him and said i didnt owe him anything, im constantly going around tidying up after him and he does nothing for me etc etc... we then didnt speak for an hour or so and now we're ok. hes been doing more which is good

ooo and i got my moses basket its really gorgeous and didnt cost too much ill post some piccies of it when i get chance!! so yeh im feeling a lot better but still feel like a beached whale lol and seem to find a new stretchmark everyday lmao but hey... my mums friend said i dont llook like ive put weight on anywhere else and just have this bump... was quite happy with that because im feeling huge right now lol

i hope you've had a good weekend so far and you enjoy today bet you're excited about being able to do the nursery still need 2 finish my little mans hehe

hope you're ok.. thanks for the nice message xxxx