Piglet's Mama
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OK, this may seem silly. In fact I know it does but I am a serial worrier, I just can't help it. So, I am 6 DPO and due to test on 6 December. But - and this is the ridiculous bit - I'm worried that it is going to be BFP.
I wanted to change my job because it makes me so unhappy, I can't stand my boss, my team are bitchy and there's always gossiping & whispering etc plus I suffer from really bad anxiety and sometimes panic attacks so this job really had me on the edge. When hubby & I decided TTC in October, I had thought to myself "give it until March and if nothing, see GP, change jobs etc" but last Sunday I was in such a state that I thought "I can't put a time limit on TTC because I hate my job, I don't want to bring a child into the world as a means to an end" so hubby & I had a long chat and then on Monday I went in to work and said I wanted a transfer. Phew!
I then came home, POAS and would you believe it, I get a positive OPK! We had BD'd right up to that point so I thought, hurrah we are in with a chance!
Now, things are moving quite quickly with my transfer application & I'm thinking, what if I AM pregnant now? What if I've jumped ship from my sh1t job and I'm now potentially preggo and I go to this new job knocked up? I could be 4 weeks pregnant when I move to this job in the new year and even if I hid the fact I was PG until 16 weeks I would have only been in my new job 3 months...
Now, I know they can't discriminate against me, but is it going to look like I knew I was pregnant when I moved & kept it from them? Again, I know I don't have to tell them, but am I going to have to play it like "Oh, I don't know how I got pregnant!"
ARGH - I know this is silly but it's playing on my mind. I want a baby so badly & so does OH, I would be delighted if we get BFP but I'm just anxious I may get slagged off in the new job because it looks like I don't give a monkeys about the job...
Sorry for very long essay-type rant... any words of wisdom? x
I wanted to change my job because it makes me so unhappy, I can't stand my boss, my team are bitchy and there's always gossiping & whispering etc plus I suffer from really bad anxiety and sometimes panic attacks so this job really had me on the edge. When hubby & I decided TTC in October, I had thought to myself "give it until March and if nothing, see GP, change jobs etc" but last Sunday I was in such a state that I thought "I can't put a time limit on TTC because I hate my job, I don't want to bring a child into the world as a means to an end" so hubby & I had a long chat and then on Monday I went in to work and said I wanted a transfer. Phew!
I then came home, POAS and would you believe it, I get a positive OPK! We had BD'd right up to that point so I thought, hurrah we are in with a chance!
Now, things are moving quite quickly with my transfer application & I'm thinking, what if I AM pregnant now? What if I've jumped ship from my sh1t job and I'm now potentially preggo and I go to this new job knocked up? I could be 4 weeks pregnant when I move to this job in the new year and even if I hid the fact I was PG until 16 weeks I would have only been in my new job 3 months...
Now, I know they can't discriminate against me, but is it going to look like I knew I was pregnant when I moved & kept it from them? Again, I know I don't have to tell them, but am I going to have to play it like "Oh, I don't know how I got pregnant!"
ARGH - I know this is silly but it's playing on my mind. I want a baby so badly & so does OH, I would be delighted if we get BFP but I'm just anxious I may get slagged off in the new job because it looks like I don't give a monkeys about the job...
Sorry for very long essay-type rant... any words of wisdom? x