Hello I'm Sara, 23.
I know my question/story might sound strange and I just wanna say that I don't intend to upset anyone on this forum, espech happy moms (too be)!
Since about 6 months I have this weird strong desire to get pregnant, I think about it everyday and I track my cycle/ovulation.
Ok this might be normal but I have an issue, I'm not single but still a very insecure person, especially when it comes to show off my body or tell anything more personal then my shoe size to someone I don't really know. These problems I have make pregnancy and everything else involved sound like a real nightmare to me (every gynecologic and not gynecologic visit already is for me).
To be clear: I can't imagine to be pregnant, to have all those visits every month, give birth (it's not about pain), breastfeed (espech in front of someone like my fiancé), and, and, and... I feel/imagine all these activities as very humiliating when I'm well aware that they shouldn't (I can't talk about it with my fiancé).
But still...I have this constant thought of wanting to get pregnant and I'm honestly scared because I feel so blue sometimes and well humiliated/embarassed as well because I feel like I'm not normal. (there's no way in hell I would be able to tell anyone I know). It's becoming an obsession, everytime I feel down about it I search for as much information about pregnancy I can just to get scared about it in order to make this pregnancy desire leave me alone for a few days (that's frustrating on the other hand).
My question is: has anyone experienced any similar feelings towards pregnancy? Since I have this weird desire/obsession to get pregnant since about 6 months could there be a hormonal cause or anything I should/could get help for from a (specific) doctor?
I hope you understand my bad english...thank you very much
I know my question/story might sound strange and I just wanna say that I don't intend to upset anyone on this forum, espech happy moms (too be)!
Since about 6 months I have this weird strong desire to get pregnant, I think about it everyday and I track my cycle/ovulation.
Ok this might be normal but I have an issue, I'm not single but still a very insecure person, especially when it comes to show off my body or tell anything more personal then my shoe size to someone I don't really know. These problems I have make pregnancy and everything else involved sound like a real nightmare to me (every gynecologic and not gynecologic visit already is for me).
To be clear: I can't imagine to be pregnant, to have all those visits every month, give birth (it's not about pain), breastfeed (espech in front of someone like my fiancé), and, and, and... I feel/imagine all these activities as very humiliating when I'm well aware that they shouldn't (I can't talk about it with my fiancé).
But still...I have this constant thought of wanting to get pregnant and I'm honestly scared because I feel so blue sometimes and well humiliated/embarassed as well because I feel like I'm not normal. (there's no way in hell I would be able to tell anyone I know). It's becoming an obsession, everytime I feel down about it I search for as much information about pregnancy I can just to get scared about it in order to make this pregnancy desire leave me alone for a few days (that's frustrating on the other hand).
My question is: has anyone experienced any similar feelings towards pregnancy? Since I have this weird desire/obsession to get pregnant since about 6 months could there be a hormonal cause or anything I should/could get help for from a (specific) doctor?
I hope you understand my bad english...thank you very much