Week from hell xD

[Danti]

Hi ladies! Not been on for a while and I have to say I have missed you all lots ^_^ Hope everyone is well!

This last week has been horrendous! I've thrown up pretty much every day after having no MS until now and felt absolutely awful all day, everyday..

I've been hit hard with my depression which has got me so down and paranoid about everything, I haven't been out at all and have just stewed, constantly beating myself up, telling myself that I'm a failure, I've never accomplished anything and that I'm going to be the worst mum ever! I even convinced myself that my OH was sick of me and didn't want to be with me any more which meant I picked at everything he said and caused pointless arguments! I even nearly cancelled my scan because I believed that I'm so much of a f**k up that my body is just playing tricks on me and I'm not really pregnant. I still find it really hard to believe that I am after being told it was very unlikely I'd conceive naturally and I'm dreading my scan on Monday just in case my worst fears are confirmed but also trying to stay positive as my symptoms have boomed! Except for stretching pains.... I haven't had any since about 7/8 wks, should I be worried about this because I really am... I haven't even let myself get excited that I've reached double digits!

On a positive note, I feel a lot better today =) moods are on a high and I even managed to eat! Also had my bloods back today and all is satisfactory!

I'm so all over the place at the moment!

Sorry about the essay lol, just needed to vent!

 

[Cazza]

Here hunny have a from me!!!

Hormones ehh??? Who'd have em???!!!!

I personally think that paranoia should be added to the list of pregnancy symptoms!!

 

[Danti]

It really should! I totally agree with you there Cazza! And thank you! Having a good day today though and FX my scan on Monday is the reassurance I need =) xx

 

[JensBump]

Good luck for Monday hunny - I hope you manage to have a nice relaxing weekend
The hormones are the worst - we all need to vent at times

 

[Olive]

Hope you're ok hun Glad you're feeling better today.

I agree with Cazza about paranoia!!!

xxxxx

 

[Danti]

Thank you ladies! Hope you're both well too and not suffering too much!

There is a fun day type thing in town tomorrow and OH's band are playing so hopefully the weather will pick up because that would be a lovely distraction and I reaaallly need to get out of the house lol!

 

[Susanne]

Oh, I do feel for you, Danti! I haven't had any stretching pains at all so far, so this is probably just another one of these things that come and go and where everyone is different. I hope the rollercoaster of hormones settles down for you soon, and that the weekend passes quickly and Monday's scan is a big success!