Today was rubbish...

[Steelgoddess]

I havent been feeling too positive recently and im wondering if maybe I am more affected then I thought I was...

Its like part of me feels ok, feels like I can cope and knows that it will happen eventually but today I just felt so pissed off!!

I think what a friend said kind of triggered it i told her and she said that maybe now isnt the right time for me to have a baby (ie this was why i was miscarrying) she didnt say it in a nasty way but it just ted me right off.

I just feel so mad, and i know this might sound a bit odd but part of me feels like when I was pregnant I wanted to do well at everything and now i just dont see the point.

I was readin cb's post about how long to wait to try and the fact that I have to wait is making me even more agiitated.

AGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

 

[katyk]

What a patronising, untrue thing for your friend to say. Yes, waiting is annoying

 

[CB23]

Oh hun, how unkind and thoughtless some people have no idea

Sorry if my posts about trying again have been upsetting

 

[miffy]

Hi Sharne

Sorry to hear you're feeling pee'd off

I know how hard it is, as you know I've been through the same recently. I had a couple of people say some upsetting things to me too, just trying to be helpful, when it's the last thing you want to hear! I know the waiting thing is hard, especially when you've had more than one mc, it feels like nothing you do is right. I waited a month last time then still mc again. I didn't really wait this time, but not pg either, finally got AF this weekend

Do what you feel is right for you. When my sister had a mc, her doctor actually told her to keep trying in order for her to cope better, on the basis that if she got pg again, it would help her with the emotional pain. (And she did get pg immediately).

You will have ups and downs - it's hit me much harder this time than my first did. I have good and bad days, had a bit of a meltdown last week, but it did me good to get it all out.

I know what you mean about the positive energy too. When I was pregnant I was so happy and positive. Now I feel completely deflated and every time I leave the house I bump into another person who I didn't know was pregnant. It's heartbreaking... (I live in a very small place!)

I suppose it's all just part of the grieving process. You seem like a very positive person so I'm sure you'll spring back soon! Would getting back to TTC give you something to aim for, or don't you feel ready yet?

Sorry to ramble on... I suppose I just wanted to convey that I understand how you're feeling and hope you feel better soon.

Take care x

 

[Kimberly]

Its been almost three months since my miscarriage and I still have down days, sometimes I'm angry, sometimes I'm sad, but they seem to happen less as time goes on.

 

[Steelgoddess]

Thanks everyone for your lovely replys. You are all so good with getting me through this tough time...

I AM trying but everytime i think im getting back up something just triggers it I guess i just need to have some patience...

CB23 Your post definatly didnt upset me hon I think its great you can get back to trying, I find it helped me get over my last miscarriage and give me something to look forward to some might think thats a bit selfish but I didnt feel as down and felt positive about retrying.

Everyone is saying I must wait now to be honest i think its best I wait for the results from my bloods because I have to think relistically about what could happen if something really was wrong, I might need a little bit of a crutch next time i get preggo (Aspirin, or something i dunno.).

Miffy im sorry you had m/cs too I know what you mean about the preggy thing i think though after you miscarry you are more receptive to whos pregnant although i shouldnt whenever i go shopping, out or anyway I see pregnant women because i think the first i notice is their tummys and that aura they have i guess...

At least I know one positive thing, after all this when i eventuall become a Mum im going to remember all these and make sure im the best Mum ever!!!

 

[babydust]

I hope you get your results very soon and and are able to start ttc again, i wasnt advised to wait so i cant imagine what you must be going through,

 

[CB23]

You'll be a great mum hun

 

[katyk]

 

[CB23]

How're you feeling Sharne? Thinking of you.

 

[Steelgoddess]

Hiya,

I felt loads better today, OH has been so suportive and im starting to piece things back again.

I saw the doctor today and he was shocked at how well im holding it together, on days like this im shocked too. I even watched a baby program (although i made me seeth with angry cause the lady on it was teachingparents how to be evil to their newborns ).

With any luck This time next year Ill be getting ready to have a baby...

Im a little nervous about my test results im soooo impatient!