Thoughts and emotions!

[eager_reader]

Hi all,

Apologies in advance as this will probably be a mini-essay! My main question is around regulating emotions and thoughts, and whether there are any tips for this.

Here is my situation to give some context...
I fell pregnant immediately and this was very unexpected (I'm 35 and my partner is 40 so I assumed that could possibly cause issues). I have not had any noticeable symptoms. Added to this, I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism right before I found out I was pregnant (and started the prescribed medication immediately). One of the worst hypothyroidism symptoms I had was extreme tiredness (luckily mostly in the evenings). So, I don't know whether my tiredness is due to pregnancy or hypothyroidism.
Because it happened so quickly and I've had no symptoms I feel as if it's too good to be true, then instantly feel guilty because I'm sure many women would give anything to be in the same situation. I've also been referred to an endocrinologist because I'm pregnant but am still awaiting an appointment (I've chased this up with my GP surgery as I've been waiting a week and a half).

What I'm struggling with is the secrecy involved in not telling friends and family. I do know that I could tell them but for my own reasons I want to wait for the scan before I do so. It's silly things like having to refuse proffered ibuprofen and Deep Heat when I've had a back ache, and avoiding all the herbal tea I used to drink because it contains licorice root. My behaviour must seem so odd to friends and family.

My emotions feel very up and down - I'm in a constant state of uncertainty because I'm in the first semester (although I'm also well aware that sadly things can go wrong after the first trimester). I naturally overanalyse by nature, which doesn't help!

I'm currently seven weeks pregnant and I am booked to see the midwife in a week and a half. Perhaps it will feel more real then?!

My partner is being a brilliant support to me but when we're in social situations, or I'm at work, we obviously can't discuss the situation - and that seems to be the time at which it's most on my mind.

So I hope someone can offer some empathy and/or advice.

I would like to give all my best wishes and virtual hugs to everyone here!

 

[BunnyN]

I think your feelings are totally normal. This will be our 4th all being well and I am still going through similar thoughts. In my case I get really bad sickness so have had no choice but to make it public in the past. So far the sickness isn't bad but I know its likely to hit before too long.