This bleeding is getting me down!

[Keeponhoping]

Well I'm currently 21 weeks pregnant. Had bleeding at 17, 19 and now again today due to cervical 'bloody' erosion (no pun intended!). Keep thinking that will be it now but no everytime I see it, I think, here we go again and scares the crap out of me! It's been a long hard slog to get to this stage since 2016 with 3 losses behind me. I feel extremely lucky to have got to this stage as thought I never would but I'm just sick of constantly worrying, day in and day out. Knew this pregnancy wouldn't be a breeze, I mean why would it be?! I just wish September would hurry up and get here so I can look after my little girl rather than worry if she's ok in there 24/7. Sorry for the rant!

 

[rainbow.23]

So sorry you're having such a rough time, I can't imagine how stressful that must be. I'm feeling exactly the same about wishing september would just get here already, I had a stillbirth at 35 weeks last pregnancy so I just cannot relax at all!

 

[Keeponhoping]

Thanks so much rainbow, I just need someone to talk to, I've been a complete mess from day 1. Oh my goodness I'm so sorry to hear of what you've been through, I can't even begin to imagine. I hope you're doing ok. I keep trying to tell myself that she's ok and then I just burst into tears! Ive had the most perfect 20 week scan and then this starts up again. The thing is this erosion keeps happening on a fortnightly basis. I didn't get checked this time cos everytime I do the speculum just aggravates it and if I keep having a speculum in there on a fortnightly basis this erosion will never heal if you know what I mean it will just keep unpicking the scab. I've had the speculum in at 17 and 19 weeks pregnant and told it's the erosion both times. I just don't know how to relax then I start feeling pulsating movements and I just hope she's down low and that my cervix isn't about to open up! thank you so much for replying, I really do appreciate it. X x

 

[Megmog]

I’m not in the exact same situation, nor do I have any advise but just wanted you to know I know how you feel. I’m almost 15 weeks but had bleeding throughout the first trimester due to a hematoma. Including a huge red bleed at 12 weeks. The hematoma is now not visible on ultrasound luckily but I’m still having constant brown discharge and blood (apparently normal!) but I just feel so anxious/stressed and like I’m just waiting for it to get worse again. I hate going to the toilet, keep waking up in the night thinking I’m bleeding. Hoping I’ll relax more when I can feel movements. Sorry to rant on! I’m not normally and anxious person but this is just driving me insane! Hope yours settles down for you xxx

 

[Keeponhoping]

Aww megmog, it really is horrible. I feel exhausted from the constant worry even though the hospital have told me not to worry, still doesn't feel right seeing blood, does it! I have an anterior placenta but since hitting 21 weeks, I'm beginning to feel her move which hopefully as you said will put my mind at ease. I hope yours settles down too. Just when you think oh I'm ok again, it starts up again. As I said, mine seems to be fortnightly and I've been told unless it changes or gets worse that all is ok. I've been told to expect bleeding throughout now due to the erosion but still freaks you out when you see it. I did have erosion before I was pregnant so I suppose due to the hormonal changes/getting bigger it was only going to play me up. See me trying to have a reasonable head on, ha! Anyway, please rant away, I hope you're ok, take care of yourself. X x

 

[Megmog]

Bless you, glad you’re feeling movements so hopefully that will be reassuring! As you get bigger and feel more movements hopefully you’ll feel better too.
I know exactly what you mean, it just puts you on edge doesn’t it, like you can’t fully relax as you’re waiting for it to happen. Drives me mad. Technically mine should get better luckily as the hematoma is no longer visable but I just keep looking into the toilet expecting the worst!
Xx