Firstly I am new so hello everyone
I am sorry my first post is not more cheerful and is so long. I just really am low right now.
I suffer depression and anxiety, this baby is very much wanted but I am so scared of becoming a mum. I do see a psychiatrist and have the appropriate mental health care but it is very hard all the same to cope.
I am terrified I've brain damaged my baby, I came across research suggesting ultrasound wasn't as safe as I thought it was and I also have been using a home doppler which again uses ultrasound. I know nothing has ever been proven conclusively
But I am still freaking out and worrying, thinking I wont ever be able to look my child in the eye in case I have ruined his life before it began by having them. I had reassurance ultrasounds - no medical reason, I was just scared he wouldn't still be alive. So I have had quite a few and was using a home doppler too.
I dont know how to cope right now, I'm 27 weeks and I am just so terrified iv brain damaged him but I will never know if I have, since nothings been proven...but if he has any problems I will always think its my fault.
I'm scared I will bolt after he's born, not because I dont love him - because I am consumed with guilt and want the best for him and I think I might not be the best. It is not like it is up to me, my husband would never let me give our baby away and I love my husband and my baby on the way very much - but I'm so scared. I feel the most awful person in the world and cant stop crying and that's not good for the baby either.
If any women out there have had healthy children after lots of ultrasounds and using a doppler please tell me.
I am sorry my first post is not more cheerful and is so long. I just really am low right now.
I suffer depression and anxiety, this baby is very much wanted but I am so scared of becoming a mum. I do see a psychiatrist and have the appropriate mental health care but it is very hard all the same to cope.
I am terrified I've brain damaged my baby, I came across research suggesting ultrasound wasn't as safe as I thought it was and I also have been using a home doppler which again uses ultrasound. I know nothing has ever been proven conclusively
But I am still freaking out and worrying, thinking I wont ever be able to look my child in the eye in case I have ruined his life before it began by having them. I had reassurance ultrasounds - no medical reason, I was just scared he wouldn't still be alive. So I have had quite a few and was using a home doppler too.
I dont know how to cope right now, I'm 27 weeks and I am just so terrified iv brain damaged him but I will never know if I have, since nothings been proven...but if he has any problems I will always think its my fault.
I'm scared I will bolt after he's born, not because I dont love him - because I am consumed with guilt and want the best for him and I think I might not be the best. It is not like it is up to me, my husband would never let me give our baby away and I love my husband and my baby on the way very much - but I'm so scared. I feel the most awful person in the world and cant stop crying and that's not good for the baby either.
If any women out there have had healthy children after lots of ultrasounds and using a doppler please tell me.