Shitty shitty week so far :-(

[ema-lou24]

Well I had my GTT test last Friday and my 28week growth scan on monday (29th).

Wasn't overly worried about anything and was looking forward to seeing my little girl on the big screen scan went well, she is defo a she aswell, legs open the lot haha, cheeky!

So, cos after the scan I had to sit with my consultant, which I knew, I still wasn't overly worried. Gave the nurse my urine sample and got my blood pressure checked.

My urine came back with protien in it and my blood pressure was that high it sent the blood pressure monitor to scream and flash "high", so she done another reading and it came back borderline.
THEN I sit with the consultant and he tells me my GTT results where in, and it came back as "raised" so I now have to check my blood glucose levels at least 8times a day for a week and go back to the hospital on Tuesday for more tests and show them my results to see if I may need tablets or insulin or fingers crossed, nothing.

So I walk away with a pic of my gorgeous wee girl and suspected diabetes and pre-eclampsia. Consultant said baby girl is small and measuring smaller than 28weeks, but he's not concerned about her, so happy with her, but unhappy with me lol.

I then inform my parents, they ask if the hosp are worried, I reply with yes otherwise they wouldn't b wanting me to monitor it and go back for further tests.......my reply was "oh well". Really couldn't give 2 shits! Plus my sis has just announced shes preg after crying and having a meltdown last week that she can't cope with her 2year old son, but shes got preg cos I am, but that's a long and boring story, but basically attention not on her, so now it is and to be honest I'm glad, my mother is a very fake person, another long story lol.

I went and told a few people about the results I get "oh I had that, u will be fine". So without sounding like a total cow,how can they say that, when this is MY body and Me going through it, NoT them? Yes it's reassuring that they came out fine and I'm thankful for the advice etc, but how can they tell me all will b ok, when I don't even have any control over it? How did they feel when it 1st happened to them? Cos that how I'm feeling about it right now, its never happened to me before so I'm a bit worried about it.
What if the pre-eclampsia progresses and I have to stay in? What if that 1st blood pressure reading was correct and I had to stay in hosp that day? What will happen with my son and my partner? How will they cope? What if they want the baby out asap? Etc etc. So when people tell me "I will be ok" yes it's reassuring and I know deep down I will be, but at the moment, all these thoughts and worries are going through my head and I feel that I'm just being a drama queen.

It just feels like a shitty week so ar.
Sorry for the rant xx

 

[Hemera]

I can't really say much but didn't want to read and run, its never good to be told its not all going to be straight forward. the good thing is that they have picked up on it early and now your going to be monitored closely so nothing should go wrong.

 

[Sarah13]

You really do sound like you had a shitty week, I'm not surprised your worried. I guess your friends are trying to make you feel better with positive stories, last thing you want to hear is negative ones just now. Shame your parents weren't more sympathetic though and your sister has taken the limelight, they must just think you always cope and she doesn't, is she the baby of the family? I take it your getting plenty of sympathy and understanding from your OH? Just try and rest this week and not let them stress you, that won't help the blood pressure and fx the testing this week will be ok. Do you have another scan soon?

 

[Geminiblue]

blimey lovey youve had a toughie hey and you are right we all deal with situations differently and you are worried and I can understand why. I have this type of behaviour in my family as well. So yes I agree, when things were a problem with me they said "oh dont worry" !!!!! I was like and you know effing what about it??? I had my sil the other day saying "see look what happens, you relax about things and you got pregnant"!!! I said "er no, I was in menopause and they put me on hrt that kick started by ovaries but it only happens to a minimum amount of people less than 1%" WTF I hate it when people dont think about what they are saying, by no means was I relaxed when I was told at 37 I was in menopause and written off as an old woman!!! arrrhhh...

Oh Ive hijacked your thread for a rant sorry babe just wanted you to know you were not alone xxx

 

[Jayceesmumma]

sorry to hear about your test results I can't imagine what your going thru
Ur family should be more supportive of you right now, sod ur sister my family is pretty similar so I know what u mean.
I told my mum I had to have cervical treatment etc and she didn't even look up from the comp.. 'Yeah? Ok I'll have the kids (not happy about having to have them)' bloody Facebook!!

Maybe noone wants to focus on the possible bad outcomes? As much as we don't want to hear all will be ok (coz noone can say that for sure!) we still don't wanna hear how bad it may be.. An honest reaction is all we want really.. Maybe 'how r u??' that's usually enough for me.. Don't like the fuss but at the same time it's not nice to be ignored and brushed off.
you'll always get our full support here

 

[LaurenMM]

Can't imagine what you're going through in terms of the medical stuff, but I do understand with regards to your mum and sister - from what you've written anyway. I genuinely hope everything turns out ok hun xxx

 

[ema-lou24]

my sister is older than me lol, but acts like a silly 16 year old.

im not asking for mountains of attention because of what the results have shown, i actually really hate being the center on attention, but a lil bit of acknowledgment wouldnt go a miss! My mum was at the school yesterday picking up mu LO and my friends who were there said she didnt seem overly excited that shes gonna be a granny again and just brushed off the subject of my result, they are really good friends outwith the playground so they know all about me and her lol.
My OH took all the results quite badly, thinking the worst etc, but now watching me like a ticking time bomb and when i have a sore head, says thats another sign of pre-eclampsia, so hes supportive, yet paranoid, bless him.

I know i sound like a total and utter cow at the moment and with people saying that it happened to them etc, thats fair enough but this is ME, why cant they understand that? Yes your sis, aunt, friend maybe had suspected pre-eclampsia and they got thru it etc, and that is really reassuring, but how did they feel when they 1st got told it? Its so hard to explain how i feel without getting looked at like im being a total ungrateful cow.

Despite me and my mum and my sisters problems, all i want is a hug from them, ask me how im feeling etc. I told my sis (we still arent really on speaking terms) and it all got turned onto her........cant i have a lil bit of the spotlight? I dont ask for much, its never happened to me so i dont wanna talk about when it happened to u (god i really am sounding like a spoilt wee brat here, sorry)

I have another scan at 32 weeks to check on her again and then again at 36 weeks. I just hope next week when i go in, the BP is ok and the protien in the wee wee is gone. and that i dont need any insulin .......but going by my recordings, my blood sugar is always low.....has anyone else had that? im hoping they just tell me to keep an eye on it and watch what i eat and dont shove me with insulin or tablets. i thought if u have low blood sugar, u just need glucose and not insulin aswell??

confused.com lol.

thank you ladies for not judging always know i can count on you's xx