Really dont know what to do

[rachaellouise]

I am so upset right now, I have just spoken to my psychiatrist who has said that he does not recommend me coming off my medication, as he does not think I will be able to cope without them, I dont completley disagree with this but I also dont completley agree either, I would rather TRY going drug free for a few months and see how I go with the thought that if I am not coping I can then go back on to something if needed than to start off on a drug which could potentialy harm or even kill an unborn baby!
I could not forgive myself if my baby was not formed properly metaly or physically because of a drug I was taking by choice.
I have not stopped crying since I spoke to him, I know he is thinking of me but I am thinking of the baby, he is not thinking how having a potentialy deformed baby would affect me he is thinking about me and me only.
I said that I would rather try coming off of them and then see how I go and he was not kean but said obviously it is up to me.

 

[rachaellouise]

What do you think to this?
http://www.nelm.nhs.uk/en/NeLM-Area/Evidence/Drugs-in-Pregnancy/Use-of-amitriptyline-in-pregnancy/

 

[rachaellouise]

After talking it over with my husband we have decided the best course of action is to come off of the Cipralex and Qutiapin as planned and stay on a very low does of the Amitriptylin till I see the Obstitrician and my new psychiatrist.
My psychiatrist did say that the Amitriptylin is the preferred drug of choice when it comes to treating depression in pregnancy.
Has anyone else heard this?

There is only one up point to continuing with the Amitriptylin is that we would only have to wait 10 days after I finish taking the Cipralex to start trying!

 

[rachaellouise]

Ok my husband and I have been talking all evening and have decided the lesser of 2 evils is to try and be medication free for at least the first trimester then if I am struggeling I will go on to medication after that then taper the dose right down for the last 3 months to hopefully reduce any withdrawl symtoms the baby may have.
I know eveyone has different views when it comes to this and I do not mean to upset or insult anyone in what I am going to say but I feel if my baby was missing a limb or deformed in some way due to my taking medication then that is something I would never forgive myself for and I really dont think i could cope with that.
I have Apotemnophobia- Fear of persons with amputations and Dysmorphophobia- Fear of deformity and I really hate what I am about to say but I do not think I could keep a child like this, so in trying without medication I am at least giving the baby the best possible start and not doing any harm that can not be undone where as any harm the medication could cause in the beginning can not be undone by stopping the medication once it is done.

So I am going to continue trying not to take medication once I stop it and see how I go, take it day by day.

 

[xshauna_bazx]

No advice for you but i just wanted to say good luck with whatever happens xxx

 

[Mummy2Adam]

Sorry i havnt got any advice but didnt want to read and run. Goodluck what ever you decide hun x x


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[rachaellouise]

Thankyou to both of you for your well wishes.
We have decided to try going drug free and see how I go, I would rather do this with the option of going on them again if I need to rather than not knowing if I could well have coped but did not even try.
I like to think I have the 'Mum mentality' already in the way that I would put my babies safety above my own.

Congratulations to you on your little bun in the oven MummytoAdam

 

[Sam's Mum]

Hope it goes well for you if you do decide to stop the medication - is there nothing that they can switch you to that is considered safe during pregnancy? x

 

[rachaellouise]

Hope it goes well for you if you do decide to stop the medication - is there nothing that they can switch you to that is considered safe during pregnancy? x

Well I think my current psychiatrist has given up on me tbh, I have been on I think 9 differnet drugs over 2 years trying to find one that 1. I did not have a bad reaction to and 2. Actually helped my condition .
So I think now that I have basically told him I am putting the health of my baby (to be) before mine he probably does not know what to do.
I am due to have an assessment with my new psychiatrist in just over a week and should be seeing the obgyn in the next couple of weeks so I think I will talk to them about safe drugs and then make my decision as to whether I will go on to anything.
I am due to stop my meds next Wednesday (wish me luck! )

 

[pinkymum]

*hugs* thinking of you! Hope you manage without meds Hun. Just a heads up, from my experience so far, it's really easy for new health professionals ie midwives etc to make snap judgements when you have a history of mental illness and your pregnant. I'm finding this out now although I have been given a different midwife who seems much better. It's amazing how people who don't know you make snap judgements from reading notes. Bloody stigma!
Good luck!

X x x x

 

[rachaellouise]

*hugs* thinking of you! Hope you manage without meds Hun. Just a heads up, from my experience so far, it's really easy for new health professionals ie midwives etc to make snap judgements when you have a history of mental illness and your pregnant. I'm finding this out now although I have been given a different midwife who seems much better. It's amazing how people who don't know you make snap judgements from reading notes. Bloody stigma!
Good luck!

X x x x

Thankyou Pinkymum, yeah I think I am going to have to be really strong about my decision and not let them try and talk me out of it!

Congratulations to you!!

 

[leibiloo87]

Good luck with whatever you decide hun I think your descision to stop taking the medication is very brave x

 

[rachaellouise]

Good luck with whatever you decide hun I think your descision to stop taking the medication is very brave x

Thankyou, I just hope it is the right one!

 

[Bunny82]

I know that when I was on Amytriptaline for OCD I was told in a low dosage it should be okay, but the best one when ttc is Sertraline - which I am on now ... I don't know if this would be of any use to you though .. but it might be worth a mention???

Good Luck!

x

 

[rachaellouise]

I know that when I was on Amytriptaline for OCD I was told in a low dosage it should be okay, but the best one when ttc is Sertraline - which I am on now ... I don't know if this would be of any use to you though .. but it might be worth a mention???

Good Luck!

x

I had to come off of Sertraline due to increased sweating!!
But I think if I am having trouble I will have to go on to something so best to know all the possible options.

 

[karenandbump]

Good luck hon - I really hope it all works out for u x x x

 

[Bunny82]

Ahh noo thats a shame, Ive never had any probs with sertraline *touches wood* I've had problems with a few different ones int he past though - I guess it's just about finding the right one for your body!

x