Oh hun i know it's such a horrible feeling at the moment! But honestly your doing so amazingly! And it will make taking him home all the more special trust me!
Also I know my hospital wouldn't discharge me untill Matthew was out of special care! They would let me stay for 2 weeks before sending me home, fingers crossed your hospital can do the same for you!
Everything your feeling is totally normal, I remember feeling totally useless at that time! But just look at your little man and he will get you through it all, and he will grow so fast that he won't be so helpless and small for long! He is a strong boy! And your a strong lady, be proud!
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