Oh thank you, that’s kind.
I think I ovulated from the side where the fluid is on Sunday, I couldn’t face doing OPKs without clomid in case they were negative, but we BDd at the weekend even though the egg won’t meet the sperm! DH is still taking the Wellman vitamins bless him! When AF arrives I’ll book the HSG at the private clinic to see if they can confirm what the blockage is and try to avoid a laparoscopy.
I’m trying not to think about losing 1 or even 2 tubes, it’s probably the worst thing that has ever happened to me, but DH told me not to worry yet in case it doesn’t happen. I have a tiny thread of hope that the fluid will disperse of its own accord so that’s keeping me going.
My counsellor said that it’s as if I’m in purgatory because I won’t know for several months if the news is going to be good or bad. I’ve got a heightened sense of awareness of small things at the moment, e.g. getting v excited about our daffodils coming up or laughing hysterically at a comedy show. I’ve also been taking great delight in putting a bottle of wine in the fridge on a Thursday night so it’s nice and chilled for the weekend!
We’re going to have to think of things to distract us over the next few months. We’ve got a party coming up where the friends have loads of children, one was unplanned and when we saw them a few years ago they gleefully put their then youngest on our laps for us to ‘practice’! Hopefully they’ll have realized that something is wrong and not mention children to us. Or maybe a mutual friend has blabbed! I really imagined I’d not be able to drink at the party but then I’ve imagined that for 2 ½ years each time we go to one! At least I'll be able to drink and have fun.