petrified of getting pregnant again.

[Princesa23]

I guess this is a place I can let off some of these feelings I've had for months but hid from everyone. I had my first loss in august at around 8 weeks I just knew something wasn't right I was in pain my cb digis wasnt upping etc. I thought it was a one off and thatid be pregnant again in no time and that pregnancy would be fine. Well I was wrong I found out I was pregnant in December I knew before I even took the test, I was so excited I thought nothing would go wrong. I felt sick, my boobs hurt no pain etc. But before I knew it I was loosing blood and I knew that pregnancy was over too. As if some evil fate my friends due in April with the same sue date I had and the baby I lost in dec was due when I mc the august one.

Anyway me and oh are wanting to try again after I have a laproscopy to check for endo and a womb scrape. But im petrified I had a nit of a panic this month with an evap line and I got depressed as soon as I saw it thinking here we go again. It worries me, I really want a baby but not another pregnancy. I know ill spend months and hours panicing about bleeding. Its so odd I really really want it but scared at the same time, I cant take another mc.

Bit of a rant really!

 

[charli_]

im sorry for your loss. the same thing happened to me, i lost my baby girl in august at 14 and 5. then in november i thought i was pregnant again, had the sore boobies and felt i had morning sickness then at the end of october i had my period, i was gutted.

 

[Cherrybelly]

I had two losses in a row which were devastating - particularly the MMC as I had no idea. I got pregnant four weeks after the MMC and literally spent the first 12 weeks terrified. I'm now 23 weeks with a baby girl and all is well. Some advice I had on here was to enjoy every day of being pregnant and that really helped. I also paid for a private scan at 7 weeks that helped a lot too. Good luck, you'll get there and it will be so worth it, I promise xxx

 

[PurpleCloud]

So sorry for your losses. The title of your thread hit home with me. I've had two unsuccessful pregnancies, one in 2006 and one in 2007. My second loss was a blessing in disguise because it lead to my endometriosis being diagnosed. Since then I have been too scared to actively TTC. It's only now I've felt ready to try. I just wanted to say I understand and I'm thinking of you. I'm sure you will get your happy ending. Just hang in there. x

 

[SharonP]

I totally understand, after two losses and an ectopic I know how hard it hits you and how scared it makes you. You are so not alone.

 

[Rose83]

1DPO and pretty hopeful I will get a bFP this month but also really scared. Can't stand the thought that I could lose another one because doctors won't investigate the reason til I have three - hate knowing that there could be a simple reason that could have saved my last little bean or my third one. Know I need to be positive but you can't help worrying x

 

[nadiaaaaaa123]

Sorry for your loss, but don't give up!

This time last year, to the day exactly I lost my baby at around 7/8 weeks. I was devastated & to make it worse my partner just started a 5 month tour in Afghanistan.. I was a mess, felt so lonely.

But when he got home in June, within 15 days I fell pregnant, I bled at around 7 weeks again with this pregnancy and was sure that I would miscarry again.

I'm now 37 + 1 day pregnant with my little girl and hoping to meet her very soon!

so what I'm saying is, don't give up I know how hard it is to worry about what can happen but I feel like everything happens for a reason.

Good luck with the future xxx

 

[Blueflower]

Could you have a bit of a break from TTC until you feel stronger? Just a month or so? I've never been through what you have, so feel free to ignore me but I have been TTC for a while and it can be exhausting, physically and mentally.

 

[nadiaaaaaa123]

Could you have a bit of a break from TTC until you feel stronger? Just a month or so? I've never been through what you have, so feel free to ignore me but I have been TTC for a while and it can be exhausting, physically and mentally.

Who was that message too? Sorry lol x

 

[Blueflower]

Could you have a bit of a break from TTC until you feel stronger? Just a month or so? I've never been through what you have, so feel free to ignore me but I have been TTC for a while and it can be exhausting, physically and mentally.

Who was that message too? Sorry lol x

It was to Princesa23 x

 

[Princesa23]

Sorry I didn't reply ladies. My op date got pushed back til april so weve decided to ttc this month and next.

I've just decided not too test if I think im pregnant these next two months im going to wait too test if im over 2 weeks late on my period, as both of my mc have been early 7 weeks and 5 1/2 weeks. So id be around 6 weeks if I wait, that way it will be easier if I do start too bleed I won't know iykwim?

It's awful, I keep thinking I may get past the stages I lost a bean at before then loose it later on in the pregnancy. I luckily have a daughter who's 2 this month her pregnancy was fine so I guess I took it for granted how these things happen! Im just so grateful I have her and she was a sticky bean :flow:

Hoping I get preg this month so that I don't have to have the operation x

 

[Blueflower]

Sounds like a very sensible plan. Good luck.

 

[SharonP]

Good luck!