It is hard to write this as it feels like about everything that can be wrong is wrong with me and after 3+ years of trying I finally dared to get a referal sorted this January, but boy did that not go well...
First things first, I already knew I had Endometriosis and told my husband as soon as we met, because, even though it might all be fine, it could influence my ability to have kids. And as having kids is somehting I have wanted my entire life it had been a tough diagnosis for me.
We started trying and after 8 months I finally fell pregnant, but miscarried 7 weeks in, which broke both of us. The following months were hell, but we got through and continued. I gained weight because apperently all I could do was eat and cry for a while, but hey, at least I got pregant once right so it will happen again?
Cue 2 years later, still nothing. So finally asked the GP's for a referal which we got almost straight away. I was scared all they would tell me is 'loose weight', but they were nice in the beginning. Husband is all fine, but I got diagnosed with PCOS on top of the endo. Insuline resistant blood for which I now have tablets which shoul help getting my metabolism right and explains why I have been strugling with weight so much even though I do exsersize and don't eat much!
Had a scan which showed the PCOS even worse... left ovary covered in cysts, right on had several folicels, but still, things could still happen right? It just takes one of thoe folicels... Until the blood results come back and tell that I do not ovulate.
Just wanted to crawl under a table. Which doctors in their mind would give any woman such news just before their period is about to start? I turn into an emotional mess every month and now you are telling me I do not ovulate and you can do nothing for me until I loose wieght? Great...
It is hard to keep faith, but what can I do? Just gotta continue my diet and hope the pills help me loose weight faster so we can start the next course of possible treatments and maybe it works. 10kg's to go to goal 1 and and 20kg before IVF (wich is only one round where I live, can you even believe that?)
Just hope there are some of you who have got some positive results from simular situations to give me some more hope.
First things first, I already knew I had Endometriosis and told my husband as soon as we met, because, even though it might all be fine, it could influence my ability to have kids. And as having kids is somehting I have wanted my entire life it had been a tough diagnosis for me.
We started trying and after 8 months I finally fell pregnant, but miscarried 7 weeks in, which broke both of us. The following months were hell, but we got through and continued. I gained weight because apperently all I could do was eat and cry for a while, but hey, at least I got pregant once right so it will happen again?
Cue 2 years later, still nothing. So finally asked the GP's for a referal which we got almost straight away. I was scared all they would tell me is 'loose weight', but they were nice in the beginning. Husband is all fine, but I got diagnosed with PCOS on top of the endo. Insuline resistant blood for which I now have tablets which shoul help getting my metabolism right and explains why I have been strugling with weight so much even though I do exsersize and don't eat much!
Had a scan which showed the PCOS even worse... left ovary covered in cysts, right on had several folicels, but still, things could still happen right? It just takes one of thoe folicels... Until the blood results come back and tell that I do not ovulate.
Just wanted to crawl under a table. Which doctors in their mind would give any woman such news just before their period is about to start? I turn into an emotional mess every month and now you are telling me I do not ovulate and you can do nothing for me until I loose wieght? Great...
It is hard to keep faith, but what can I do? Just gotta continue my diet and hope the pills help me loose weight faster so we can start the next course of possible treatments and maybe it works. 10kg's to go to goal 1 and and 20kg before IVF (wich is only one round where I live, can you even believe that?)
Just hope there are some of you who have got some positive results from simular situations to give me some more hope.