November 2ww

[Alexis2017]

I'm only on cd10 today and I just got a pos opk..
Do I count it? Or keep doing more opk? Normally I'd just stop but this is too early for me..
Wasn't going to dtd tonight as did last night and can't be bothered tonight but now I feel like I have to????
Ughhh I've been ttc for too long give me a break

I got a positive opk on cd9 and ovulated on cd10 of this cycle and fell pregnant. I ovulated on cd9 after my first chemical and fell again straight away. Go for it, just try to make it fun. Xx

Alexis, why not tey to just go bt your cm alone and dtd a few times when it's like ewcm and then just relax? You really need to take the pressure off yourself. Xxx

GG I tried that for 3 months. I didnt chart at all but then when it didnt work i went back to charting. I don't even know when to dtd now as as we have been covering way before...on ovulation and after for a while now and nothing.

 

[_GG_]

I'm only on cd10 today and I just got a pos opk..
Do I count it? Or keep doing more opk? Normally I'd just stop but this is too early for me..
Wasn't going to dtd tonight as did last night and can't be bothered tonight but now I feel like I have to????
Ughhh I've been ttc for too long give me a break

I got a positive opk on cd9 and ovulated on cd10 of this cycle and fell pregnant. I ovulated on cd9 after my first chemical and fell again straight away. Go for it, just try to make it fun. Xx

Alexis, why not tey to just go bt your cm alone and dtd a few times when it's like ewcm and then just relax? You really need to take the pressure off yourself. Xxx

GG I tried that for 3 months. I didnt chart at all but then when it didnt work i went back to charting. I don't even know when to dtd now as as we have been covering way before...on ovulation and after for a while now and nothing.

I know I keep sating it, but there are so many women on this forum who have taken 18+ months to get pregnant...please don't lose hope, you're not doing anything wrong, it's just taking a long time. Your mind can have a huge effect on your health so please try not to let the demons defeat you. Stress is the absolute enemy of fertility so just look after yourself. Xxx

 

[Alexis2017]

Thanks GG, I know. I am trying to find stuff to distract me. Went my 1st horse riding lesson as an adult today and was just what I needed. I remembered more than I thought I would. I booked another lesson for thur as I am off work this week coming. I just need to try and try again. I know we are older and it can take longer but all mybfriends this age took 6 months max and I guess I need to stop comparing our situation to that.

 

[_GG_]

Thanks GG, I know. I am trying to find stuff to distract me. Went my 1st horse riding lesson as an adult today and was just what I needed. I remembered more than I thought I would. I booked another lesson for thur as I am off work this week coming. I just need to try and try again. I know we are older and it can take longer but all mybfriends this age took 6 months max and I guess I need to stop comparing our situation to that.

Yes...and I really do know how hard it is. If my first pregnancy had worked out, I'd have an almost 13yr old by now. I'm 39 next month, there are plenty of older women becoming mothers naturally but if you're over 35, you should be able to get fertility help after 6 months but I know you're on that track already and your results so far have been brilliant.

I think the most frustrating thing about this whole journey is these bodies are ours. We treat them well, we do everything right, we look after them perfectly, but we have absolutely no control and we have no idea what the are doing inside. That's what I've struggled with most...the not knowing if I'd lose another as the symptoms are so confusingly similar to af or ovulation...things I never had symptoms for before. We lose trust in our own bodies so it stands to reason that our minds suffer that trust in ourselves as well.

I'm thinking of you a lot. So wish I could help but absolutely keep up with the riding...my horses are my saviours. They ground and soothe me every day! If you're ever near Gloucester, you must come visit xxx

 

[millielaura]

My cycles messed up lol. I usually ovulate cd20 but this month I had some pains c14 but didn't think it would be ovulation so soon . started opks cd16 and flashing smiles no solid yet. Today I'm cd23 and had some red spotting which has stopped . Ewcm gone too. I think I must of ovd cd14 and maybe af on way booo xx

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[_GG_]

My cycles messed up lol. I usually ovulate cd20 but this month I had some pains c14 but didn't think it would be ovulation so soon . started opks cd16 and flashing smiles no solid yet. Today I'm cd23 and had some red spotting which has stopped . Ewcm gone too. I think I must of ovd cd14 and maybe af on way booo xx

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Could be af...could be implantation. Fx for you xxx

 

[millielaura]

I think I'd be 8dpo today if the cd14 pains were ovulation. Not hopeful for implantation after ohs results lol but will see if af comes soon xx

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[Alexis2017]

Thanks GG, I know. I am trying to find stuff to distract me. Went my 1st horse riding lesson as an adult today and was just what I needed. I remembered more than I thought I would. I booked another lesson for thur as I am off work this week coming. I just need to try and try again. I know we are older and it can take longer but all mybfriends this age took 6 months max and I guess I need to stop comparing our situation to that.

Yes...and I really do know how hard it is. If my first pregnancy had worked out, I'd have an almost 13yr old by now. I'm 39 next month, there are plenty of older women becoming mothers naturally but if you're over 35, you should be able to get fertility help after 6 months but I know you're on that track already and your results so far have been brilliant.

I think the most frustrating thing about this whole journey is these bodies are ours. We treat them well, we do everything right, we look after them perfectly, but we have absolutely no control and we have no idea what the are doing inside. That's what I've struggled with most...the not knowing if I'd lose another as the symptoms are so confusingly similar to af or ovulation...things I never had symptoms for before. We lose trust in our own bodies so it stands to reason that our minds suffer that trust in ourselves as well.

I'm thinking of you a lot. So wish I could help but absolutely keep up with the riding...my horses are my saviours. They ground and soothe me every day! If you're ever near Gloucester, you must come visit xxx

Yeah I turned 34 in August so not 35 for another 10 months. I didn't know how to word this so I don't mean it to sound offensive if it is to anyone who has had a mc. I think never having been pregnant in 11 months worries me. My sis in law had 4 mc in 1 year before she had her 1st baby at 36 and she had her 2nd baby with ease. I just think there must be blocked tubes or a rubbish uterous to be stopping the fertilisation or the embryo implanting. I don't think I will be able to get past that until a doc tells me they are normal. Hopefully get these answers very soon !

 

[xMillie]

Thanks GG, I know. I am trying to find stuff to distract me. Went my 1st horse riding lesson as an adult today and was just what I needed. I remembered more than I thought I would. I booked another lesson for thur as I am off work this week coming. I just need to try and try again. I know we are older and it can take longer but all mybfriends this age took 6 months max and I guess I need to stop comparing our situation to that.

Yes...and I really do know how hard it is. If my first pregnancy had worked out, I'd have an almost 13yr old by now. I'm 39 next month, there are plenty of older women becoming mothers naturally but if you're over 35, you should be able to get fertility help after 6 months but I know you're on that track already and your results so far have been brilliant.

I think the most frustrating thing about this whole journey is these bodies are ours. We treat them well, we do everything right, we look after them perfectly, but we have absolutely no control and we have no idea what the are doing inside. That's what I've struggled with most...the not knowing if I'd lose another as the symptoms are so confusingly similar to af or ovulation...things I never had symptoms for before. We lose trust in our own bodies so it stands to reason that our minds suffer that trust in ourselves as well.

I'm thinking of you a lot. So wish I could help but absolutely keep up with the riding...my horses are my saviours. They ground and soothe me every day! If you're ever near Gloucester, you must come visit xxx

Yeah I turned 34 in August so not 35 for another 10 months. I didn't know how to word this so I don't mean it to sound offensive if it is to anyone who has had a mc. I think never having been pregnant in 11 months worries me. My sis in law had 4 mc in 1 year before she had her 1st baby at 36 and she had her 2nd baby with ease. I just think there must be blocked tubes or a rubbish uterous to be stopping the fertilisation or the embryo implanting. I don't think I will be able to get past that until a doc tells me they are normal. Hopefully get these answers very soon !

I used to think if I ever got pregnant just once and had a mc I'd feel better knowing I could get pregnant
Totally took that back after it happened.. feel a million times worse as now I wonder if there's something up that doctors have missed
I'm going to find it so hard to be excited if we do get pregnant again

 

[_GG_]

Thanks GG, I know. I am trying to find stuff to distract me. Went my 1st horse riding lesson as an adult today and was just what I needed. I remembered more than I thought I would. I booked another lesson for thur as I am off work this week coming. I just need to try and try again. I know we are older and it can take longer but all mybfriends this age took 6 months max and I guess I need to stop comparing our situation to that.

Yes...and I really do know how hard it is. If my first pregnancy had worked out, I'd have an almost 13yr old by now. I'm 39 next month, there are plenty of older women becoming mothers naturally but if you're over 35, you should be able to get fertility help after 6 months but I know you're on that track already and your results so far have been brilliant.

I think the most frustrating thing about this whole journey is these bodies are ours. We treat them well, we do everything right, we look after them perfectly, but we have absolutely no control and we have no idea what the are doing inside. That's what I've struggled with most...the not knowing if I'd lose another as the symptoms are so confusingly similar to af or ovulation...things I never had symptoms for before. We lose trust in our own bodies so it stands to reason that our minds suffer that trust in ourselves as well.

I'm thinking of you a lot. So wish I could help but absolutely keep up with the riding...my horses are my saviours. They ground and soothe me every day! If you're ever near Gloucester, you must come visit xxx

Yeah I turned 34 in August so not 35 for another 10 months. I didn't know how to word this so I don't mean it to sound offensive if it is to anyone who has had a mc. I think never having been pregnant in 11 months worries me. My sis in law had 4 mc in 1 year before she had her 1st baby at 36 and she had her 2nd baby with ease. I just think there must be blocked tubes or a rubbish uterous to be stopping the fertilisation or the embryo implanting. I don't think I will be able to get past that until a doc tells me they are normal. Hopefully get these answers very soon !

No offense taken at all. I do think it sounds like you've had dome chemicals though. The vast majority of women never know. I only knew about mine because I used the superdrug early tests from about 7dpo so got lines that turned good, then faded away before af was due. If I hadn't tested and got lines, I'd have just thought my af was a little later than normal...or earlier the one month. I have been regular as clockwork since I was 14, but I bet I'd have put the cycle length changes down to my age or something being wrong with me. Medically, 10 months isn't considered worrying so try to take some comfort from that but...you are absolutely entitled to feel the way you do. Xxx

 

[LuckyLaura]

I'm not in the tww just yet but feeling pretty dispirited I have a low sex drive mainly due to an awful past sexually and I really struggle now that I put myself under pressure to dtd on certain days. some people are really into it and I'm kinda jealous cuz i know that I have to do it to get a baby but the majority of the time I really don't want to

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I understand what you mean xxx both DH and I don't have a very high sex drive, we love cuddling etc and at most we'll dtd once a week...ttc is hard sexually on us and caused a lot of friction. Now I've adopted a 'when it happens it happens' attitude. At least I can now go back to enjoying it

It's difficult isn't it? It's made worse cuz my husband has the sex drive of a 16 year old boy that just discovered women have a hole hahaha it's so out of balance. He says he never used to and it's just cuz he loves me so much and can't keep away but I don't know how cuz I'm gross and need to lose weight and ugh it'll work out tho xx

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[KatD]

emotions are so hard to deal with sometimes, especially when you struggle each day not to feel low...I've been struggling with my weight too. Like I ballooned after the pill..the oral allergies are making me miserable because the only thing I can eat is carbs...and carbs aren't my friends... I try to gym every day but honestly... I don't have the right attitude toward it and try as I might I just can't seem to mentally shift it. Lol. I feel like I moan and fuss the whole time...

 

[LuckyLaura]

emotions are so hard to deal with sometimes, especially when you struggle each day not to feel low...I've been struggling with my weight too. Like I ballooned after the pill..the oral allergies are making me miserable because the only thing I can eat is carbs...and carbs aren't my friends... I try to gym every day but honestly... I don't have the right attitude toward it and try as I might I just can't seem to mentally shift it. Lol. I feel like I moan and fuss the whole time...

Haha same I do much more talking about it than actually fixing it and then when I get stressed or sad I end up comfort eating and that helps no one just makes me feel worse and so the spiral continues. We are joining the gym again and I'm determined. Going to do it for a new motivation this time -before was just for me but now it's for our future kids xx

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[xMillie]

Cd11 for me today and opk today is STRONG. I thought yesterday was positive but this one is so dark.
Guess we need to keep dtd.. sigh. Though last nights was kinda fun even though we were both super tired lol.

..A pos opk this early and omggg my boobs have not stopped aching.. Looks like it's going to be a much shorter cycle!!! Not good

 

[xMillie]

Guess my 2ww is starting earlier than I thought it would?

 

[LuckyLaura]

Cd11 for me today and opk today is STRONG. I thought yesterday was positive but this one is so dark.
Guess we need to keep dtd.. sigh. Though last nights was kinda fun even though we were both super tired lol.

..A pos opk this early and omggg my boobs have not stopped aching.. Looks like it's going to be a much shorter cycle!!! Not good

I totally relate. I get to the point where I actually just don't want to dtd

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[xMillie]

Opk negative today and omggg the cramps last night and today have been so bad, they're all on the left side.
So I guess my 2ww starts tomorrow? I wish there was an easier way to confirm it, I think temping would stress me out too much so it's not worth it

 

[xMillie]

Or is this still a positive opk?
I'm never 100% sure when the line goes like that. It's really dark on the left but fades.
Yesterday was def pos and the whole line was darker than control line

 

[KatD]

Looks like you might have O'd, it has reached its peak and is now fading out. Dtd today if you can still, just to be on the safe side..if you covered your basis up to this point you should be all good to go. FX that the next 14 days will be the start of a healthy and very happy nine month wait

 

[LuckyLaura]

Opks stress me out something shocking hahaha I can't figure them out but then I've only just started xx

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