MoominGirl
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Oh Linx...I hate that feeling, testing 10dpo and getting a stark bfn. You just know it's over and yet you hold on to the hope that it miiiight just be a tad bit too soon...I promised myself that this cycle I'm not going to test until AF is well and truly late. I'm so tired of seeing bfn's.
Alexis...I wish I had words...you must be feeling so numb by now. I pray the break will be the month you get your bfp, and if not, I still hold the hope that it will help you and DH to give TTC another go, a fresh start of sorts. My heart goes out to you
Lol, Moomingirl, my husband and I look like druggies. We're on all three Fertilaids and Fertipil for him and her and I take Angus Castus, folic acid and aspirin. (I alternate of course between them else I'd puke) FXfor you hun xxx
Thanks Kat. My boobs are so sore I squealed early when the side of my arm squashed against it....unreal! I have no idea why my body can't make a baby. I am just broken
Alexis, I often feel like I could have written your posts myself. I've reached a point where I just feel like our bodies aren't cut out for this. I don't care any more whether it's me or him or a combined effort. Either way we're broken. I think I'm all cried out this week though. Now I just feel kinda empty. Ask me again at the weekend when the witch arrives though. I'm sure I'll be in a state again. Hope you're as ok as you can be.
I think am over the crying. It's like a blank space now. I just want the hsg test now so we can move on to next step. I said this at the beginning and Im saýing it now I always had a feeling from as young as I can remember knowing about the birds and the bees that I wouldn't be able to have a baby. I feel like I have always known this. It doesn't make it any easier.
I hate going to work mon/tue as a girl I work with who is 4 months preggers works then and it is like rubbing salt in my wound for 48 hours a week. When she has her baby no one else in work is keen for another baby barr 1 girl who is on mat leave with a prem baby and she said it be 2 or 3 years for 2nd ....so really it should be me next but they all think I won't cos I am older with no kids. A patient in his 30's asked me yesterday if i was going to have kids and Im like yeah hopefully....then be said its best thing you will ever do
I then felt like that blank space again ...it's a weird feeling lìke your head is on fire but it's invisible...I duno I can't even explain how it feels anymore
I always think I'm over the crying. Then I have another meltdown. Then I'm over it again. Like I thought I was in a pretty good place last Sunday then I found out our fertility referral had been cancelled. Then I was completely hysterical. I did calm down then spent what feels like half the week chasing and organising the stuff that should have been done in the first place. I really haven't got the energy. I just need something in the near future to focus on so that I feel like we're moving forward. It's the only way I know how to cope. Cancelling appointments and not even telling me doesn't really help with that (I had to call and ask why I hadn't received confirmation
). Most of my colleagues have completed their families and I seem to have done a good job of convincing people that we're not ready yet
It avoids awkward questions. I know what you mean when the topic is unavoidable though. I just feel out of place and kinda odd. Like you say difficult to explain.
this cycle
