Loopy_Loti
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Sooooooooooooo sorry for the really long post but I'm needing to spill my feelings.........................
The shock & joy of getting my BFP on Dec 7th was the best thing ever (a year of TTC).
The staying quiet about it over the past 8 wks apart from close family & friends has been v difficult (xmas & new year a few key folk had to be told!!).
The cold turkey of no fags nor drink was ok over the past 8 wks was totally fine as I had such a good reason, I was as good as gold!! Albeit an unusual situation & one that my work buddies had picked up on! Many work folk had already surmised my condition. I gave up eveything IMMEDIATELY I got my BFP so am not going to blame myself for the loss. I was about to shout from the top of my voice this friday (12wk scan booked) but nature interviened on Monday.
To save time I copy below the email I sent to my close work buddies....... you get the general idea. I've today received a huge bunch of flowers from them which of course has reduced me to floods ...... but the glass is always half full & hopefully in a couple of months time it will be brimming once again.
Despite living in east london the hospital staff (both A&E & the EGU, emergency gynee unit) were amazing & I know I'll be well looked after with early scans etc next time round.
I look forward to being back in tri 1 within the next couple of months, & hopefully progressing to tri 2 & thereafter tri 3!!!
I was already too scared to even peek at tri three and the gory detail of labour - but having just experienced what I guess was labour pains with the MC I'm not so scared now.
May time roll on swiftly.
Hi Guys,
I think it best that I put those of you Im close to in the picture re whats being going on with me this week. Ive never been good at secrets & a week long tummy ache with no further explanation just isnt going to wash.
As some of you may have speculated I was pregnant and my 3 months would have been this Friday. Sadly it wasnt to be and Monday I suffered a miscarriage. The GP sent me straight to the hospital and I lost it in between 2 scans. The first one showed the foetus (that wasnt as developed as a 12wk should be) and the second scan sadly showed that it had escaped. I was then given 3 options to rid the rest of it (the sac and paraphernalia). Either sit & wait for my body to do it naturally (could take a week or a month so clearly not an option with Barca round the corner), or to book back in this week to have it expelled either by drug induction or surgery. Either way would have required a 24hr stay in hospital so I left on Monday afternoon deciding to make a decision what to do on Tues. Nature decided to intervene & all options were removed as by 3am Tues morning I was in such agony I couldnt walk or stand. By 5am I was in A&E (on morphine and gas & air!!) and by lunchtime theyd managed to get me into the gynee ward and on the emergency surgery list (it had got stuck at the neck of my womb so needed to be removed with least delay!). So, after general anaesthetic and some scraping around yesterday afternoon its over. Physically Ill be sore for a few days and advised to stay at home, emotionally Im not sure its all really hit home yet.
Id rather those who Im close with know the full story & as Im rubbish at keeping secrets & Ill feel happier talking about it rather than keeping it all under my hat. The past couple of months being pregnant & having to stay quiet has been the toughest secret Ive ever had to keep so in some ways even though the outcome is not a happy one Im the type who will feel more comfortable being open about it all so that I can move on and put it behind me.
The positives of course are that at least I know Im in full working order and of course Ill be trying again once all better, and the other positive is that I can look forward to partying as Im used to on my birthday in Barca with a few bottles of wine!!!
Ill be staying on top of emails and am on the phone for the rest of this week if anyone needs me and will be back in the office early next week.
Hugs,
KP
xxx
The shock & joy of getting my BFP on Dec 7th was the best thing ever (a year of TTC).
The staying quiet about it over the past 8 wks apart from close family & friends has been v difficult (xmas & new year a few key folk had to be told!!).
The cold turkey of no fags nor drink was ok over the past 8 wks was totally fine as I had such a good reason, I was as good as gold!! Albeit an unusual situation & one that my work buddies had picked up on! Many work folk had already surmised my condition. I gave up eveything IMMEDIATELY I got my BFP so am not going to blame myself for the loss. I was about to shout from the top of my voice this friday (12wk scan booked) but nature interviened on Monday.
To save time I copy below the email I sent to my close work buddies....... you get the general idea. I've today received a huge bunch of flowers from them which of course has reduced me to floods ...... but the glass is always half full & hopefully in a couple of months time it will be brimming once again.
Despite living in east london the hospital staff (both A&E & the EGU, emergency gynee unit) were amazing & I know I'll be well looked after with early scans etc next time round.
I look forward to being back in tri 1 within the next couple of months, & hopefully progressing to tri 2 & thereafter tri 3!!!
I was already too scared to even peek at tri three and the gory detail of labour - but having just experienced what I guess was labour pains with the MC I'm not so scared now.
May time roll on swiftly.
Hi Guys,
I think it best that I put those of you Im close to in the picture re whats being going on with me this week. Ive never been good at secrets & a week long tummy ache with no further explanation just isnt going to wash.
As some of you may have speculated I was pregnant and my 3 months would have been this Friday. Sadly it wasnt to be and Monday I suffered a miscarriage. The GP sent me straight to the hospital and I lost it in between 2 scans. The first one showed the foetus (that wasnt as developed as a 12wk should be) and the second scan sadly showed that it had escaped. I was then given 3 options to rid the rest of it (the sac and paraphernalia). Either sit & wait for my body to do it naturally (could take a week or a month so clearly not an option with Barca round the corner), or to book back in this week to have it expelled either by drug induction or surgery. Either way would have required a 24hr stay in hospital so I left on Monday afternoon deciding to make a decision what to do on Tues. Nature decided to intervene & all options were removed as by 3am Tues morning I was in such agony I couldnt walk or stand. By 5am I was in A&E (on morphine and gas & air!!) and by lunchtime theyd managed to get me into the gynee ward and on the emergency surgery list (it had got stuck at the neck of my womb so needed to be removed with least delay!). So, after general anaesthetic and some scraping around yesterday afternoon its over. Physically Ill be sore for a few days and advised to stay at home, emotionally Im not sure its all really hit home yet.
Id rather those who Im close with know the full story & as Im rubbish at keeping secrets & Ill feel happier talking about it rather than keeping it all under my hat. The past couple of months being pregnant & having to stay quiet has been the toughest secret Ive ever had to keep so in some ways even though the outcome is not a happy one Im the type who will feel more comfortable being open about it all so that I can move on and put it behind me.
The positives of course are that at least I know Im in full working order and of course Ill be trying again once all better, and the other positive is that I can look forward to partying as Im used to on my birthday in Barca with a few bottles of wine!!!
Ill be staying on top of emails and am on the phone for the rest of this week if anyone needs me and will be back in the office early next week.
Hugs,
KP
xxx
My tummy still feels really sore and the bruises on my arms from the drip etc are ugly (they buggered up my right arm vein, so had to use my left arm instead to give me matching bruises - scuse language) & it would have been my 12wk scan this morning 
