Nervous...

[Heulyn]

Hi girls....
I've had 2 miscarriages:

• 11+5 on16th November 2009
• 5+2 on 23rd March 2010

Now since the last ine I've had some weird cycles, with odd bleeding, because of the contraceptive I was on.
Well, I stopped my contraceptive on 20th May, and yesterday I got what looks like a v.v.v. little bfp.

I can't say for sure it's a BFP - it was very faint, and didn't come up instantly, could have been an evap??, BUT the OH saw it as well as me, and there was something there.

We'll be testing again soon, and my point is:
If I am pregnant, I'm going to be terrified right up until I see my 12 week scan.
I'll be constantly worried that I'll M/C again, I'm awful for it.
I just don't know if i can put myself through it again!
I'm so worried!
I think, in the midst of all this rambling.... I'm just looking for some reassurance and support.

 

[karenandbump]

Oh sweetie.....I felt the same testing this time after a mc and when I got my BFP I cried and cried cos I couldn't face going through another mc. In the end I got my head around the fact that this pregnancy would be scary but that it's something I just needed to go with. I really hope it's a BFP for you and that all goes well. Here any time u need to talk - thinking of u xxxx

 

[kiki]

It's horrible to constantly fear that the worse is going to happen. I have had 2 MC's and to be honest I worried pretty much the whole of my 3rd pregnancy (he is now 13 months). Don't really have any advice to give but wanted to wish you the best of luck!! xx

 

[JJ Mum]

Leah , you know my thoughts, and if a BFP , I would be over the moon for you
It will be scarey for you, nothing can change that, it will be a long 12 weeks, but as you have had two, and one of them a Missed MC, I would ask the doc at initial appointment what they can do to help reassure you or agree to give you an early scan which will help you pass the 12 weeks with a bit of reasureance, it can't stop it happening later just the same, so you will need to keep a very open mind, think positive to help you through the tricky doubting weeks and take just a day at a time.

Don't forget us girls will be with you all the way, so you won't be doing this alone Hun X

 

[lillie]

Best of luck for the BFP.

I'll be worrying alongside you. Perhaps you could get a private scan if your midwife wont refer you on the strength of your worrying and stressing? I'm in Berkshire and you can get an 8 week dating scan for £65. it might be worth it for peace of mind? (I was going to do it but then I had some bleeding and went to the emergency clinic instead.)

Remember - 3rd time lucky!