evie_smith
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Its a bit long so i thank anyone that gets through this and replies xxxx
I thought I was ok but I don't know if I really am
It just keeps going round in my head someone in my family said when I lost one of them
"Oh well there must have been something wrong with it"
"Do how far are you gone?"
"Do you still have 2 sacs and are you sure they both survived?"
Now this person didn't even say sorry for my loss or anything just text me to see what happened to get the information. When I was told by another member of the family on the phone I must ring or text them to tell them what going on as they want to know I told them straight that I was really upset with this person. But I sent a scan picture to her phone anyway and all I got back was
"Is that the dead baby sack at the bottom?"
No awe at the baby or anything just as above as wrote. I didn't reply back to her.
I know it's not just about this one person but I have just been holding back - I haven't even cried. I feel so lucky to still have one an really grateful of that. But I feel so numb. I should have had 2! When this baby is born I'm going to be thinking what if they looked like each other?! I know I'm really lucky still be be left with one and I am grateful. But the "are you sure both survived?" I said yes as I seen the heart beat (she was implying the other one may be dead as well) and she went on to say
"Well that ok then you wouldn't want the other one to die now as well"
I know I shouldn't listen to her but its been circling. I feel greedy and spoilt for feeling sad and upset that I lost one as I've got one left. I feel like I shouldn't feel sad as I've still got one on board. Everyone I've spoken to (that have been nice) have all said
Well look on the bright side you still have one
And I know what they mean and I really really really am grateful and I mean that 100% but I feel like (and I know they are not) but its like they are saying. "Ah well you have got one so that's it no looking back and think yourself lucky" - but like I'm being selfish to moan my lost baby - maybe I am being. I still have one after all. But I feel like the lost twin was there and I don't want it to be forgotten. I think it has been made worse by people around me.
Am I selfish for feeling this way? Or being pathetic? Should I just forget? Like everyone wants me to?
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I thought I was ok but I don't know if I really am
It just keeps going round in my head someone in my family said when I lost one of them
"Oh well there must have been something wrong with it"
"Do how far are you gone?"
"Do you still have 2 sacs and are you sure they both survived?"
Now this person didn't even say sorry for my loss or anything just text me to see what happened to get the information. When I was told by another member of the family on the phone I must ring or text them to tell them what going on as they want to know I told them straight that I was really upset with this person. But I sent a scan picture to her phone anyway and all I got back was
"Is that the dead baby sack at the bottom?"
No awe at the baby or anything just as above as wrote. I didn't reply back to her.
I know it's not just about this one person but I have just been holding back - I haven't even cried. I feel so lucky to still have one an really grateful of that. But I feel so numb. I should have had 2! When this baby is born I'm going to be thinking what if they looked like each other?! I know I'm really lucky still be be left with one and I am grateful. But the "are you sure both survived?" I said yes as I seen the heart beat (she was implying the other one may be dead as well) and she went on to say
"Well that ok then you wouldn't want the other one to die now as well"
I know I shouldn't listen to her but its been circling. I feel greedy and spoilt for feeling sad and upset that I lost one as I've got one left. I feel like I shouldn't feel sad as I've still got one on board. Everyone I've spoken to (that have been nice) have all said
Well look on the bright side you still have one
And I know what they mean and I really really really am grateful and I mean that 100% but I feel like (and I know they are not) but its like they are saying. "Ah well you have got one so that's it no looking back and think yourself lucky" - but like I'm being selfish to moan my lost baby - maybe I am being. I still have one after all. But I feel like the lost twin was there and I don't want it to be forgotten. I think it has been made worse by people around me.
Am I selfish for feeling this way? Or being pathetic? Should I just forget? Like everyone wants me to?
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