i posted about this before because i got the contraceptive implant 3 weeks after I had Anjali, and my sex drive (which was high all through pregnancy plummeted) Im still not sure if its due to that or due to having recently had a baby
she sleeps well so its not that im too tired (although I am tired)
i have had a ridiculous amount of stress but to be honest ive had stress the entire past year and its not affected my sex drive before. But with the stress i had leading up to buying our business , moving house constantly, being told i could lose my mortage , over the last couple of weeks , i did get to the point where i every time a new obstacle came up I started physically shaking cos i just couldnt take any more stressors....
but now everything has come together pretty much, its not as bad as that...but i dont seem to be able to enjoy it much and my sense of humour has totally gone, im not much fun to be around right now, as well as the sex side of it
due to living circumstances and the fact that she was stuck alone 14 hours a day i gave away my cat yesterday. My cat has always been my baby who ive loved fiercely but i dont feel anything about the fact i gave her away, ijust hope she's happy.
Anjali is a really good baby and im really thankful for that, but i never had the rush of love - i know not everyone gets it so i hadnt been too concerned about it, but reading other posts i think maybe i should feel more? This sounds terrible but when i have looked at her and thought 'would i have chosen this if i'd had a choice?' i cant honestly say i would have..its just how things have turned out and now im getting on with it...Kami my OH says not a day goes by when she doesnt make him smile and feel happy but i think thats cos you come and go but i have to be attending to her ALL the time! I dont regret having her but at the same time i dont think im getting as much enjoyment as i SHOULD
hope i havent rambled too much , i dont feel depressed but when i read what ive just read it doesnt look too good, or is it understandable given ive had just about as much stress as a person could take and will i just feel myself again more when i realise the fighting for everything is over???
she sleeps well so its not that im too tired (although I am tired)
i have had a ridiculous amount of stress but to be honest ive had stress the entire past year and its not affected my sex drive before. But with the stress i had leading up to buying our business , moving house constantly, being told i could lose my mortage , over the last couple of weeks , i did get to the point where i every time a new obstacle came up I started physically shaking cos i just couldnt take any more stressors....
but now everything has come together pretty much, its not as bad as that...but i dont seem to be able to enjoy it much and my sense of humour has totally gone, im not much fun to be around right now, as well as the sex side of it
due to living circumstances and the fact that she was stuck alone 14 hours a day i gave away my cat yesterday. My cat has always been my baby who ive loved fiercely but i dont feel anything about the fact i gave her away, ijust hope she's happy.
Anjali is a really good baby and im really thankful for that, but i never had the rush of love - i know not everyone gets it so i hadnt been too concerned about it, but reading other posts i think maybe i should feel more? This sounds terrible but when i have looked at her and thought 'would i have chosen this if i'd had a choice?' i cant honestly say i would have..its just how things have turned out and now im getting on with it...Kami my OH says not a day goes by when she doesnt make him smile and feel happy but i think thats cos you come and go but i have to be attending to her ALL the time! I dont regret having her but at the same time i dont think im getting as much enjoyment as i SHOULD
hope i havent rambled too much , i dont feel depressed but when i read what ive just read it doesnt look too good, or is it understandable given ive had just about as much stress as a person could take and will i just feel myself again more when i realise the fighting for everything is over???