I just wanted to say thank you to all of you for your messages, they mean a lot to me.
I've had a bit of a shedder this morning - just been bawling for the last hour or two, so much for being fine. Work has been building up and I have so much to do over the next few days to catch up, I'm also gutted about how long we're going to have to wait before trying again (I know it's only a month but it feels like forever). But I suppose with every cry I'm one step closer to getting over it, as I've said before most of the time I'm fine, but it's bound to build up every now and again, it's only normal I suppose. Anyway, writing this has helped greatly. Thanks again everyone.