Hi,
first off can I just say that while I was in hospital yesterday and last night I kept thinking about you ladies on here, especially you Steelgoddess, and how brave and strong you all are. It really helped me knowing that as soon as I could get to an internet connection you'd all be here to talk to.
Anyway, I'd really like to share to get it off my chest if you don't mind as I really need to get it all out. Basically we'd been out for the day in Cardiff and everything was fine until we got into the car to drive home then I felt a horrid rushing feeling and was sure something very bad was going on. Thankfully we weren't yet on the motorway so my OH pulled over to a Pub and I went into the ladies. I was bleeding really heavily and there were huge clots the size of my fist and I was so paniced. The only thing I had with me to possibly stop the blood from going everywhere was Mel's nappies so I went and got two and wrapped them round my pants.
We phoned my GP- of course it being Saturday there's no one there so eventually a locum calls back after 45 mins but by this time I'd phoned both EPU in Bristol and one took pity on me and told me to come straight in. As soon as I got there I passed a huge clot again and I was basically going into shock a bit so they put me on a drip and gave me paracetamol as my temp was high too. They kept me in all night and checked my obs every 2 hours but the bleeding really tailed off after midnight. The Dr was so nice and she said that there was little chance of the pregnancy being viable but she did an internal to see if she could tell from my cervix which she couldn't. This morning I had an ultrasound and an internal scan as well and basically there's a sac but just a little bundle of cells down the bottom, no baby. I really hoped that I had passed that last night but I haven't and there's still lots of lining to come as well apparently.
So they've let me home and I have signed the papers for a D&C asap although I am both scared of that and scared of passing the clots again so I don't really know how to feel about it. What's a D&C like? I am very worried about the catheter as I have a lot of scarring in my urethra from UTIs and I had a really major kidney infection at Easter which makes me totally paranoid about infections on the other hand I am scared about passing the clots and don't know how I'll manage running after my 2 year old if I have to be waiting by a loo at any point. I'm really scared.
My OH is very upset although he says that it just makes him realise just how much he really wants another child, I am keen to give it all another go although just how you get through those first few weeks not knowing if there's even a baby there or not I can't imagine. Can you pay for an early scan? We don't even get 12 week scans here and not an early one unless you're in pain or bleeding but I would so like to have known at 6 weeks that this was not going to all happen as it being 10 weeks the amount of blood loss etc is really frightening.
Sorry for going into TMI, I really need to talk about it. The Dr told me to go through any clots I pass
really horrid. I have a small washing basin that fits on the top of the loo that I'm going in. What sanitary towells are best? I don't have many in the house right now so I have an Alldays ultra on and one of Mel's nappies on again. In hospital I had huge adult nappy type things, can you buy them? Are they incontinence things?
Thanks for listening, I'm so sorry for all of your losses. Having never had one I'd never really appreciated how devastating and scary it is, to be honest I'd kind of purposely not thought about it as too bad to even think about. I do know that I'm lucky not to have been further on, or to have been in much pain actually and I'm really grateful for that.
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first off can I just say that while I was in hospital yesterday and last night I kept thinking about you ladies on here, especially you Steelgoddess, and how brave and strong you all are. It really helped me knowing that as soon as I could get to an internet connection you'd all be here to talk to.
Anyway, I'd really like to share to get it off my chest if you don't mind as I really need to get it all out. Basically we'd been out for the day in Cardiff and everything was fine until we got into the car to drive home then I felt a horrid rushing feeling and was sure something very bad was going on. Thankfully we weren't yet on the motorway so my OH pulled over to a Pub and I went into the ladies. I was bleeding really heavily and there were huge clots the size of my fist and I was so paniced. The only thing I had with me to possibly stop the blood from going everywhere was Mel's nappies so I went and got two and wrapped them round my pants.
We phoned my GP- of course it being Saturday there's no one there so eventually a locum calls back after 45 mins but by this time I'd phoned both EPU in Bristol and one took pity on me and told me to come straight in. As soon as I got there I passed a huge clot again and I was basically going into shock a bit so they put me on a drip and gave me paracetamol as my temp was high too. They kept me in all night and checked my obs every 2 hours but the bleeding really tailed off after midnight. The Dr was so nice and she said that there was little chance of the pregnancy being viable but she did an internal to see if she could tell from my cervix which she couldn't. This morning I had an ultrasound and an internal scan as well and basically there's a sac but just a little bundle of cells down the bottom, no baby. I really hoped that I had passed that last night but I haven't and there's still lots of lining to come as well apparently.
So they've let me home and I have signed the papers for a D&C asap although I am both scared of that and scared of passing the clots again so I don't really know how to feel about it. What's a D&C like? I am very worried about the catheter as I have a lot of scarring in my urethra from UTIs and I had a really major kidney infection at Easter which makes me totally paranoid about infections on the other hand I am scared about passing the clots and don't know how I'll manage running after my 2 year old if I have to be waiting by a loo at any point. I'm really scared.
My OH is very upset although he says that it just makes him realise just how much he really wants another child, I am keen to give it all another go although just how you get through those first few weeks not knowing if there's even a baby there or not I can't imagine. Can you pay for an early scan? We don't even get 12 week scans here and not an early one unless you're in pain or bleeding but I would so like to have known at 6 weeks that this was not going to all happen as it being 10 weeks the amount of blood loss etc is really frightening.
Sorry for going into TMI, I really need to talk about it. The Dr told me to go through any clots I pass
really horrid. I have a small washing basin that fits on the top of the loo that I'm going in. What sanitary towells are best? I don't have many in the house right now so I have an Alldays ultra on and one of Mel's nappies on again. In hospital I had huge adult nappy type things, can you buy them? Are they incontinence things?Thanks for listening, I'm so sorry for all of your losses. Having never had one I'd never really appreciated how devastating and scary it is, to be honest I'd kind of purposely not thought about it as too bad to even think about. I do know that I'm lucky not to have been further on, or to have been in much pain actually and I'm really grateful for that.
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I have had 4 d&c's now as i didnt bleed with any of my losses and to be honest i dont think i could have went through with managing with it at home, the only thing is you have said that you are prone to uti's, it is really common to get a uti from a d&c maybe if you talked to your dr they could maybe give you antibiotics b4 your d&c and after to prevent infection.
