Ive decideded to go out for a couple of hours tomorrow night, im going to give ella her bath and bottle and be back to give her her bed time bottle so i wont feel like im sacrificing any parental duties if that makes sense?! im not going to drink so its more just to socialise for a couple of hours, i need to do it gradually i think! i dont feel nervous about leaving her prob because im leaving her with my mum and i completely trust her 100% with Ella, she sees her everyday so she is as much of a part of Ella's life as I am! xx